My own lyrics Date Wednesday, April 17, 2024 - 05:20 PM PST Topic Music I recently bought myself an electric guitar. Acting upon a very intense dream of mine to become a real musician. I was playing around with it, when suddenly it began to speak to me. I composed a few clumsy riffs, but they showed promise, and I knew I had to write something to go with it. So, the next morning, after my boyfriend went to work, I sat down with my guitar, played the riff over and over until it sank into my soul, picked up a notepad and pencil, and started writing. And what came out was a poem about suicide. About a razorblade shining in the lights above the mirror. About wanting to die and not having the courage to carry it out. This actually happened to me several months ago. But since then, things have worked out and I am happy again. I fought my way through and rebuilt my life and it is better than ever. But it seems that it needed to be written out. That was OK. But then I needed to write another song. It ripped itself out of me. This one was about poison. About a relationship that is so sweet, so fulfilling, so what you want, but you know it is killing you. This song really jolted me. I'm happy! Really, I am! My boyfriend is not poison to me. I don't know where this one came from. The only thing I can think of is it was the last bit of my church girl that I used to be talking. Because with my boyfriend I do a lot of things that I used to consider very wrong. And there is potential danger for me with him. All people are dangerous. A couple of days later, I wrote another song about how stupid I was. It kept saying that, "stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid". And I know why I wrote it. I always do things the hard way. I never learn from other people, never take advice. I listen, store it away, and then go ahead and go through trouble and learn it all through the university of hard knocks! Why can't I just do what wiser people tell me, when I know they're right? Not blindly, of course, but when I KNOW they're right? But my big surprize in writing songs now, is that they are all sad or angry! And I am really so at peace with my life now. I suppose it makes sense, that when I was going through things, I was too close to them to write about them. All I wanted to do was cry. Now I have a little perspective, and a calm place to write from. Now they're coming out. But I wasn't expecting it, and it scared me for a bit. I wonder what's going to pop out next? This article comes from Shmeng http://www.shmeng.com/ The URL for this story is: http://www.shmeng.com/modules.php?op=modload&name=News&file=article&sid=86