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daria_4
Member   Posts: 96 Registered: 29/7/2003 Status: Offline
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posted on 10/8/2004 at 04:47 PM |
From time to time, I disappear from the online world--dangers of my job, I
suppose. I've titled this entry hiatus, but in truth, I don't think I
could take one from this place. I don't think I've earned a spot within the
shmeng circle for any absence of mine to be considered a hiatus, really.
They are all merely absences. In light of some of the recent happenings
here, that doesn't necessarily seem to be a bad thing. When I post to the
forums, I usually try to make it something that I want feedback on; I put
follow-up questions, if you will, into my topics. I am not looking for
attention or advice or anything in particular with this post, but the
things I have to say just don't seem to go too well in the recently posted
forum topics or as comments to articles. And it just doesn't seem worthy of
being its own article, either.
My situation in regards to "status" on the site is probably not unique. I'm
sure someone else is in the same boat as me. I seem to be gone more often
than here. When I come back, I catch up on my reading and all the latest
news, but rarely post because it's no longer news by the time I get to it.
The conversation has died down and/or the articles have left the front
page, leaving my thoughts on the matter-no-longer-at-hand little to no
chance of being seen or otherwise acknowledged. In the cases where things
are still semi-current, most of what I was thinking has already been said,
and we all know about the uselessness of "I agree" posts... I'd just as
soon give someone else Tough Love for that kind of thing--but somebody else
already has--than commit that crime myself.
I'm not going to lie and say it wouldn't be nice to see my name mentioned
in some of the polishing articles that list the great denizens of this web
community from time to time, but the up side of obscurity is that I also
don't see my name on the Tough Love type forums when I come back from my
periods of leave. Just as it would suck to be getting lessons and not be
here to learn from them, so also would it suck to get praise and not be
here to thank people for it in a timely manner.
For as long as I can remember, I've spent my life just on the outside of
any given social circle. I'm there enough for people to know they can count
on me when they need me, but not enough so that they ever actually call on
me. Somewhere in an old yearbook or christmas card in my mom's attic,
there's a passage that a highschool acquaintence of mine wrote:
"We may not hang out much, but I know I can trust you and you'll always be
there for me. Sorry if I didn't act like it or let you know that before."
It was a nice sentiment, and I'm sure he even meant it, but it didn't
change anything. We've graduated and moved on, and we're not even in touch.
There are individuals whose lives am I sure I've touched in unforgettable
ways, and I cherish that--for they have touched me in the same memorable
way. I am not throwing a pity party with the theme of Boohoo, I Have No
True Friends. This is just a reflection on my (lackluster?) skills in the
group dynamic. My place feels like slightly more than a warm body, but not
quite like an unreplaceable entity. I've gotten used to it. I think.
I want to add more to this community, whether anyone else takes notice or
not. It has given much to me, and I want to give back to it. I feel bad for
not always being able to contribute as much as I'd like. Life just doesn't
seem to be cooperating with my interests lately. One good thing about not
becoming a comfortable, old permanent fixture around here is that at least
I'm not letting anyone down when I'm not able to be here. ____________________
"I've told you before, I don't comprehend religion, although
conviction is a concept I'm beginning to get. In any case, a person
with a real religious conviction is, I propose, a religious convict,
and deserves locking up."
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Monolycus
Fanatic   Posts: 580 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 11/8/2004 at 03:05 AM |
quote:
I want to add more to
this community, whether anyone else takes notice or not. It has given much
to me, and I want to give back to it. I feel bad for not always being able
to contribute as much as I'd like. Life just doesn't seem to be cooperating
with my interests lately.
Well, standing out from the pack isn't going to happen if you're just
waiting around. Take your time, but don't take too much. In the
meanwhile, you seem to have a decent head on your shoulders, a reasonably
balanced view and the ability to type with a minimum of mistakes. That
already gives you a pretty decided advantage. I'm not sure if it was
polish, recognition or just getting to know more people more intimately
that you were after. In any case, writing about it was a good first step.
I am, as ever,
your faithful servant,
~M.
P.S. Nice to meet you. Don't think we'd spoken before now. ____________________
"I believe that woman is planning to shoot me again."
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daria_4
Member Posts: 96 Registered: 29/7/2003 Status: Offline
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posted on 23/8/2004 at 01:05 AM |
I'm not even sure what I was looking for tou of that--but writing it down
did feel good. Thanks Mono; nice to meet you, too.
At any rate, speaking of hiatii, I am about to go underway again. I'll be
back in port and with internet in September, though I will be going on
leave for part of that month and disappearing again. Maybe I'll luck out
anf have some article material hit me while I'm gone.
I haven't said much, but I've been here in the last few weeks. I'll miss
this place while I'm out to sea, as always. Be back soon... ____________________
"I've told you before, I don't comprehend religion, although
conviction is a concept I'm beginning to get. In any case, a
person
with a real religious conviction is, I propose, a religious
convict,
and deserves locking up."
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Moinlen_Drigenu
Member  Posts: 71 Registered: 18/6/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 24/8/2004 at 02:16 AM |
quote:
For as long as I can
remember, I've spent my life just on the outside of any given social
circle. I'm there enough for people to know they can count on me when they
need me, but not enough so that they ever actually call on me...... There
are individuals whose lives am I sure I've touched in unforgettable ways,
and I cherish that--for they have touched me in the same memorable way. I
am not throwing a pity party with the theme of Boohoo, I Have No True
Friends. This is just a reflection on my (lackluster?) skills in the group
dynamic. My place feels like slightly more than a warm body, but not quite
like an unreplaceable entity. I've gotten used to it. I
think...
I think I know a bit of what you mean though I am
not sure.....I don't get into relationships much, cause i am afraid of what
I will do to the other person, afraid that I might do something wrong that
will hurt them. I know plenty of people, but maybe a few I really know. I
trust a few in some sense. I prefer to sit on the outside and watch
people, seein people happy makes me happy. Seeing someone getting hurt,
drives me insane, especially when i care.
I went on a date recently, it did not go well for many reasons, but the
main one was me, and my fucken....whatever you call it...something that
stopped me going any further with it. 
Ahhh....the joys of being like this. Being close enough to touch, but know
further.
Glad to meet you daria_4. ____________________
"It is said that we loose ourselves in rage, I think I find what is
missing, when it happens."
"These scars are just for show, it's the ones inside that you have to worry
about."
"When I get into a fight, all I think is..."KILL HIM"..."
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