I write this not for sympathy, although I am grateful for all of your
concern threw out my times of need, this is simply a warning.
I just started college two days ago. I was happy for once after Tim’s
passing. I saw some old friends that I didn’t expect to see again (as well
as meeting some new ones), always a good thing. It still feels like summer
vacation since I only have three day weeks and six classes per week. Things
are almost normal for me, something which hasn’t really happened
since...well, I can’t remember.
I came home today and went online. I talked to a friend and he told me of
his ex girlfriends died. I asked who it was and he told me. Her name was
Farron, a old friend who I haven’t seen in a long time. She died in the
basement of a person I know (a companion as well) sniffing a freshener for
hours. She hasn’t even graduated high school...
I wonder why she could have been so idiotic and foolish to do something
like this. I am also confused, should I show my sympathy towards the
“gentleman” who’s home she died in or should I send my fist into his face?
He has a problem with drugs among many things and I wonder if the blame
should be placed on him... Then I realized that all these petty emotions
should be set aside and my concern should be towards my friend which took
in Farron... She is devastated by this I am sure. I will be going to the
funeral if not to say goodbye but for her sake as well.
Friends look out for each other and my friends are my family.
I’m sure now you are wondering what is my point so here it is. Don’t make
foolish choices with your life to numb reality, it may cost you the
ultimate price. Live before you die; and be there for the people you care
about. They need you more than you’d expect.
I say neither sympathy or anger is due towards the idiot who´s house she
died in. It was her choice to huff herself into non existence, and she
could have done that anywhere, even in her own house.
Life can be shitty enough as it is, I don´t see why people go out of their
way to make it even more difficult...but everyone makes their own choices,
and they dont´ think of the other people whom those choices may impact (ie:
not thinking of friends and family when she did some harmless "huffing"
that she damned well knew could and would kill her)
You have my sympathies, and my advice is to be there for your friend, and
be a shoulder not an entity of vengence for someone that swung their own
axe.
____________________ Trapped in time. Surrounded by evil. Low on gas.
Monolycus
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posted on 6/9/2002 at 12:30 PM
I agree with Bettie, Alone. It is difficult enough to accept the
senseless, but recognise your own limitations when you do so. Assigning
blame, much less "sending (your) fist into (someone´s) face", neither
solves nor eases anything. Your friend made her own unfortunate decisions
regardless of who might or might not have facilitated those decisions.
Learn as best you are able from the mistakes of others, try as best you are
able to instruct others, but it is not your place to judge and redress the
sins of others.
Whether or not you were trying to solicit it, you have my sympathy. Your
life seems to have more than its fair share of crises. While it is
unreasonable to expect that bad things will never happen, it is incumbent
upon you to minimise the number of these crises that occur in your life...
do not use one sorrow as the springboard into the next one. You can not
control the actions of anyone else, but it is by your own decisions that
your life will eventually be appraised. I am, I was, I will be
always willing to listen,
~Monolycus.
____________________ "I believe that woman is planning to shoot me again."
AloneSoul
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Posts: 522 Registered: 6/7/2002 Status: Offline
posted on 6/9/2002 at 09:20 PM
Thanks Bettie and Monolycus for taking your time to reply to this. Things
have been silent over here for the past day, melancholy at best.
Monolycus, heh, this post wasn’t a cry for attention. This was a warning to
the young and old people alike who come to this site, learn from others
mistakes.
Live awhile, atleast till your twenty-five, before you throw your life
away.
Again I thank you both, and everyone who read this post, for your time.
*smile* If I had thought that it was a cry for attention, I doubt very
much that I would have responded to it at all. And you are welcome. Hang
in there.
~M.
____________________ "I believe that woman is planning to shoot me again."
MorteAscendo
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posted on 9/9/2002 at 04:24 PM
Fist to Face. I´ve regreted all the times that i wish i would just punched
the fucking lights out of someone. If you hit him, then baam, its done.
Then even if you regret it now, later you can still say you punched the
fuckin guy. :-x
____________________ "Roses are Red, Violets are Blue. I'm a schizophrenic, and so am I".
AloneSoul
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Posts: 522 Registered: 6/7/2002 Status: Offline
posted on 12/9/2002 at 05:29 PM
Tim´s death taught me that you can have compassion for most people... it
would be satisfying, but it won’t bring her back.
The guy, he´s in jail, facing charges of involuntary manslaughter.