pale-face
Fanatic Posts: 478 Registered: 22/9/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 18/3/2007 at 09:18 PM |
My nono (grandfather) died on the 10th. It hit me like a train. I mean, I
know he was going to die; he had been in the old folks home for 3 years. He
wasn’t walking, eating, walking. He wasn’t doing anything really. The last
time I went to see him he said “I want to go home, I’ve been here for 2
weeks”, loud, clear, and in Italian.
His death totally shattered my world. As I got my chance to pay my last
respects to him I said a prayer and kissed him forehead as a final goodbye.
But even that startled me. As stupid as it sounds, I forgot dead people
were cold. And that was it for me. I stood there and it finally clicked.
He’s dead. As I watched them lover him into his casket and close the coffin
I had to grab my nona (grandmother) because she had almost fainted.
I have had very little time to think about what has happened and just now
I’m being bombarded with emotions. I just, I don’t know anymore. I’m so
lost… ____________________ fucking classy. |
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feralucce
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 1810 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 18/3/2007 at 09:23 PM |
I wish I had words for you... but... I am no magician...I have no magic
words for you...
to be honest, I have had people close to me die, but I barely understand
how I felt... so I am of little help here... you ARE in my thoughts however ____________________ The earth turns on a tilted axis - just doing the best it can.
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Rogue
Member Posts: 199 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 18/3/2007 at 09:50 PM |
He is somewhere he would rather be, despite missing all of you so terribly
much. You should grieve for him as you see fit, but understand that he was
probably ready for the transiton and probably wants you to feel as little
grief as possible. I don't know anything about your religioius background,
and for that fact I apologise in advance and also invite you to contact me
privately, but I feel that he probably meant for you to remember him while
also rememebering that you are alive, and as such you should live your life
to the fullest. I committed suicide thirteen years ago, and that was what
I thought for myself as I relised my life had ended. ____________________ Plenty of time, my sweet. Plenty of time. |
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Starlight
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 618 Registered: 27/9/2002 Status: Offline
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posted on 18/3/2007 at 11:21 PM |
It's always hard to know how deeply things will hit you like that, and it
sounds like you did what you felt was right for you at that time and that's
really the only way to do things in those situations. My thoughts go out to
you and yours. ____________________ "When choosing between two evils, I always like to try the one I've never
tried before." ~Mae West
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Schizo
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 897 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 19/3/2007 at 01:50 AM |
*hugs* ____________________ "You can tell by the scars on my arms and the cracks in my hips and the
dents in my car and the blisters on my lips that I'm not the carefullest of
girls." - Dresden Dolls, "Girl Anachronism" |
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daria_4
Member Posts: 96 Registered: 29/7/2003 Status: Offline
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posted on 19/3/2007 at 06:34 AM |
I'm very sorry for your loss. I lost my grandfather a few years ago and
while I was expecting it, it still hit me like a ton of bricks. My mom had
been taking care of him in her home for the last 6-7 years of his life. And
while I will never forget the first time I came home from college and he
didn't remember who I was, I will also never forget the time I spent with
him before his health and memory began to fail.
It took a long time to be able to bring up even the good memories, but time
is the great healer, and I hope you'll be able to do the same soon.
*hugs*
____________________ "I've told you before, I don't comprehend religion, although
conviction is a concept I'm beginning to get. In any case, a person
with a real religious conviction is, I propose, a religious convict,
and deserves locking up." |
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Thanatopsis
Member Posts: 52 Registered: 17/3/2007 Status: Offline
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posted on 19/3/2007 at 12:16 PM |
I'm bad at these so if it seems off im sorry. I'm very sorry for the loss
of your grandfather and what feeling you are going through. Its always hard
losing someone you love but time will heal. Hopefully when it is all said
and done you can reunite with him and laugh about all the good times you
shared together. My thoughts go out to you, and your family. ____________________ Aim for the head, Shaun of the dead. |
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littlegothgirlthatcould
Member Posts: 100 Registered: 13/2/2007 Status: Offline
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posted on 19/3/2007 at 04:17 PM |
*hugs*
My great-grandma died about two weeks ago... =(
so I feel you here... ____________________ [[Ive learned too many things to let life pass me by now. Ive grown up and
learned my lessons, this is the beginning of the future]] |
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pale-face
Fanatic Posts: 478 Registered: 22/9/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 19/3/2007 at 08:58 PM |
I appreciate all of your input toward my situation. I’m grateful for your
support and I take your advice to heart.
Thank you all.
*hugs* ____________________ fucking classy. |
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Thanatopsis
Member Posts: 52 Registered: 17/3/2007 Status: Offline
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posted on 20/3/2007 at 11:54 AM |
no problem at all. youve got all the support in the world from me and
everyone here.
*hugs back... if its cool with you* ____________________ Aim for the head, Shaun of the dead. |
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feralucce
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 1810 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 22/3/2007 at 04:23 AM |
i have found... that going to the most remote spot you can find and
screaming at the world... while effectively futile... spawns a form of
catharsis... ____________________ The earth turns on a tilted axis - just doing the best it can.
Hohenheim of Light~Full Metal Alchemist |
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Sardonic-Pain
Fanatic Posts: 248 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 22/3/2007 at 08:05 AM |
Whats up with all this death? On the 11th a good friend of mine was killed
at the age of 25 by a drunk driver on his way home from work. He was close
enough to home where the accident happened that his girlfriend heard the
accident. The man was drunk going over 60 in a 35 ran a red light and right
into my Matthew. He still had the PapaJohns thing on top of his car. He
died instantly. He was the prettiest little goth boy. I shared a lot with
him over the years and this is the first time I have had someone die that I
was that close with....Oddly enough the last time we hung out was at a
cemetary talking about death and what not. Life is short....way too short.
Be careful and let people know how you feel. I never got the chance to tell
Matthew how much he meant to me.
*Hugs to you PF* Sorry for your loss. ____________________ My Life is like a porno-Without the sex-Just the weird music |
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Thanatopsis
Member Posts: 52 Registered: 17/3/2007 Status: Offline
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posted on 22/3/2007 at 04:21 PM |
damn. im sorry for your loss sardonic-pain. ____________________ Aim for the head, Shaun of the dead. |
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Thanatopsis
Member Posts: 52 Registered: 17/3/2007 Status: Offline
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posted on 22/3/2007 at 04:46 PM |
This month has been a weird month for death. I just found out today that my
good friend james, his friend commited suicide last night. We found it out
over the p.a system and the whole day a really dark vibe hung over the
school. but whats really sick is that a few people cracked jokes at this
guys expense saying/calling him an "emo-kid" and made fun of how he killed
himself. ____________________ Aim for the head, Shaun of the dead. |
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littlegothgirlthatcould
Member Posts: 100 Registered: 13/2/2007 Status: Offline
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posted on 23/3/2007 at 09:27 AM |
That's what they did with my friend Chelsea, when she ended up hanging
herself, while she was trying to get "high" by... asphictiation? i dont
know how to spell it, but thats the word, in other words she was trying to
get a high from choking herself with a belt around her neck. ____________________ [[Ive learned too many things to let life pass me by now. Ive grown up
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learned my lessons, this is the beginning of the future]] |
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Thanatopsis
Member Posts: 52 Registered: 17/3/2007 Status: Offline
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posted on 23/3/2007 at 11:51 AM |
thats how this kid died. he hung himself but instead of a belt he hung
himself with a dog leash. its sad because from what i heard the signs were
everywhere but he just kept on getting ignored. ____________________ Aim for the head, Shaun of the dead. |
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pale-face
Fanatic Posts: 478 Registered: 22/9/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 25/3/2007 at 08:20 PM |
thanaopsis, i apreciate your reply to me durring my time of weakness and i
now intend to help you. stop being a noisy idiot. all i see from you is "oh
ya that happend to me" and "i had one of those to". stop trying to agree
with ever one and act as if you have experienced all of lifes perils.
please excuse my if i am speaking out of turn, but your really annoying me. ____________________ fucking classy. |
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Meranda_Jade
Fanatic Posts: 511 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 25/3/2007 at 08:37 PM |
'scuse? I thought he was just making conversation. And it has been a very
weird month for death. Very weird. ____________________
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Schizo
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 897 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 26/3/2007 at 01:41 AM |
? Pale-Face?
Only issue I have with Thanatopsis (gotta find the boy a nickname... that
takes too long to type) is that he freaks out occasionally and panics about
being out of line...
And I count myself lucky that I don't seem to have a part in this strange
month of death. Knock on wood... ____________________ "You can tell by the scars on my arms and the cracks in my hips and the
dents in my car and the blisters on my lips that I'm not the carefullest
of
girls." - Dresden Dolls, "Girl Anachronism" |
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Thanatopsis
Member Posts: 52 Registered: 17/3/2007 Status: Offline
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posted on 26/3/2007 at 03:06 AM |
pale-face. wasnt aware i was trying to be mister relate and enjoy. like
maranda-jade said... i was just making conversation. ____________________ Aim for the head, Shaun of the dead. |
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