I always said that I would do what was necessary to protect what shmeng is
and needs to be... and while responding to Mono on another thread, I came
to some realizations and revelations about myself... I ahve come to a point
in my genesis of self actualization... that I do more harm by my presense
here than good...
you have stimulated my mind and my soul... and returning it... seems
impossible anymore... as I am not sure what I think or even who I am
anymore...
if any of you would like to chat [email protected] , but I
won't be back here...
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Monolycus
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posted on 11/9/2006 at 08:10 AM
Take a break if you need to, but enough with the melodrama. I'll speak
with you again when you've gotten it sorted.
If I respond to you at all, it means I think you're worth responding to.
If I still bother to butt heads with you, it means I still have hope that
you can hear more than the sound of your own voice... there are others in
these parts I don't give that much credit to any longer and have written
off as a complete waste of time.
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pale-face
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posted on 11/9/2006 at 05:33 PM
feral, you are an immensely intelligent man and although this could either
be a mid-life crises or a childish out-cry for attention either way i feel
i should at least give you my 2 cents. you are, although incredibly
cynical, you are in my opinion one of the necessary facets of this sight.
if your leave is permanent these forums will be loosing a great asset.
____________________ fucking classy.
Domkitten
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posted on 11/9/2006 at 08:48 PM
feral, you can't go. who will do the feral slam when we desperately need
one?
____________________ It's like kegel exercises for your throat.~Monolycus
Schizo
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posted on 12/9/2006 at 02:23 AM
This saddens me. Feral, yes, you can be a little melodramatic, though god
knows you've had plenty of reason to be that way, and I don't know, I guess
that's just part of Feral and I love it along with the rest. I love that
you never stop trying - I love that you're passionate, and I love that
you're a fighter.
Just like I love Mono, the intelligent, impatient, prickly, witty, gruffly
caring person that he is. It is perhaps inevitable that the two of you
should clash, and yet I feel you genuinely care about each other.
Everyone is flawed. Everyone is confused. And everyone has beauty and
value and worth.
I myself am going through a sort of identity crisis right now - I can't
really talk about it, but my entire world and the way I've been approaching
it has gone through an upheaval, and I no longer recognize myself or even
like myself half the time. I've kind of been staying away and not posting
because how can I express myself when I am so confused about who I am
anymore? So Feral, I feel where you are - maybe not the depth, but a taste
at least. Hang in there, friend, and don't lose your sensitive and
passionate spirit. It may need a little control, but it is valuable and
loved. I don't think you sense your own value here.
I personally think the site needs more Feral, more Mono, more Devin,
definitely more Bettie X and Callei and Shade. Hell, look at that list -
what a bunch of crackpots! Is there a normal, "healthy" one in the lot?
Damn, all these people I've never met, but I love like sisters and
brothers, and where are all of you? Have we all become afraid of those
strange things in us that were actually the things that drew us to each
other?
I feel like crying.
callei
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posted on 12/9/2006 at 08:45 PM
all i can say Ferel is i understand. I had to pull away for awhile too.
still am really as this is my first post here in months and months. just
seeing the site makes me cry and miss what and who is gone. (for those of
you thinking that i am being misty-eyed about shmengers that have moved on,
get over it.)
Take a break if you want. lurk if you like. just check you messages here
every now and then if nothing else.
if we were home I would toss a couple coked up strippers at you to shake up
your mood and hear you giggle like a girl and let you fuss about me not
eating all my supper.
Dont be a bitch sweetie. the year is almost over and it is, after all,
harvest time.
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away.
Sardonic-Pain
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posted on 16/9/2006 at 06:17 AM
WoW a possibility of no Feral around Shmeng....It seems hardly right....
Take a break Feral but don't leave us completely!
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blood_rose
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posted on 17/9/2006 at 06:53 AM
quote:I always said that I
would do what was necessary to protect what shmeng is and needs to be...
and while responding to Mono on another thread, I came to some realizations
and revelations about myself... I ahve come to a point in my genesis of
self actualization... that I do more harm by my presense here than good...
ferral,
you and i have spoken but a few times in the past,
and though i have never been the most active member in this community,
the others are right it would scarce be the same without you.
take a breather,
i hope we see you here again.
____________________ angels angels, clip there wings and watch them fall with thier feathers.
laugh and turn, the moon wants clemency for their souls.
Dolorosa
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posted on 24/9/2006 at 04:59 AM
I hope you aren't gone forever, or even for very long dude...would be very
much the suck.
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