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Articles: Schizo back for a visit
Posted by Schizo on Wednesday, November 07, 2001 - 04:55 PM PST

Experiences
Well, hello everyone! I've missed you all. And God, have things ever been crazy. Do you want to hear about it? No? Well, tough because I'm going to tell you. Well, I kicked the boyfriend out. Left him a letter, and then moved all his stuff into the livingroom while he was at work. He left the blacklites on in the livingroom, out of spite, to show me what his ex had painted on the walls in blacklite paint. Whatever. I burnt all her letters, and a couple of music books that I had given him a while back.

Later that evening I went out shopping. When I got back, the place had been invaded. The first sign was a pile of stones in the middle of my driveway. When I went inside, I saw that they had
A. dipped my toothbrush in the cat litter box
B. erased the eyes on the picture of me I had drawn on the whiteboard, and replaced them with x's
C. taken a picture of me and him out of my photo album and put it in my firepit with candles placed around it
D. written the word "die" in dryerase marker where the photo had been
E. put ashes from what I'd burnt in my teacup
and F. the ex left me a note, warning me not to play with spells.

I also noticed that my hairbrush was cleaner than I generally keep it. Also, they had gotten into my "altar cabinet" and stolen my altar cloth and rearranged what I had on it.

Well, I called up someone that a friend of mine had reccommended I talk to and got some advice on how to combat attack. While I was talking on the phone, the ex arrived, with her daughter (for protection, probably, since she knows I would never fight her in front of the kids). She tried to warn me off of magick. I know the rule of 3 as well as anyone, and I don't do magick to harm anyone. She tried to give me a guilt trip about kicking my boyfriend out. She said that she didn't want him. She said that he made her write those letters to make me jealous. I sent her away, told her I didn't trust her, and made her promise to bring back my altar cloth.

The next day was Halloween. She showed up with the kids, and handed me the altar cloth. It was sprinkled all over with garlic. I don't even use that altar cloth for spells! She's so scared of me it's funny! The next morning I found sage in my firepit, and wax shavings, and a clump of my hair. I gathered together everything that she's played with, tied it in a cloth, and dumped it in the swamp. And worked like hell to get the tension cleared from the atmosphere of my home.

Well, you may think that things should be getting back to normal now. She's been leaving me alone, I've been struggling with the challenge of making it on my own financially, and dealing with loneliness and disappointment. Well, it's just about to get really complicated.

I'm pregnant.

Yes, I'm serious. I'm going to keep the baby. I think it will be due in June. But my boyfriend isn't necessarily going to be there. He says he'll try, but he won't be living around here anymore. He's dropping everything, me, his ex, his job, and driving down to Florida to make a fresh start.

We had a couple of good talks. He admits his mistakes, and that it isn't my fault. But he's overwhelmed, and he hates this town. He's being really sweet while he's here, coming over to check on me every couple of days, and promising to keep in touch (and it's a real promise. I know the difference now, and he never promises that way unless he really means to keep his word.) He says he'll try to be here when the baby is born.

I'm glad we're on good terms again. But I'm afraid that he's just running away from himself. He thinks being in Florida will solve all his problems, but I think his problems are rooted in himself, and his discouragement and depression that makes him not care anymore who he hurts. But there's just a chance that this could be just what he needs. And anyway, nothing I could say could make him change his mind. So instead of being like his ex and trying to stop him and being all bitchy, I'm giving him all the support I can without giving him things that aren't safe for me to give.

All in all, it's an incredibly stressful situation. I'm happy about the baby, and I really believe that things will work out for me, but I really can't see quite how it's going to work, and of course I'm constantly mourning the fact that my baby's father won't be around to help.

But I've been feeling better the last couple of days. A lot more stable, and I'm starting to explore the options this area holds for single mothers.

I can't believe I'm going to be someone's Mom!

I've still got to break it to my parents.

When WILL my life ever calm down?


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Re: Schizo back for a visit
by bettie_x (strangersangel@hotmail.com)
on Nov 07, 2001 - 05:27 PM
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Well, now with a kid, it NEVER WILL! But children to some people can be a good sort of hectic....
That's funny how bad the ex is afraid of you...garlic? What was she doing, making you a pizza? jeezus...what a nut.
Hey, I just purchased a bottle of "double action no screwing around hexing oil"
I've gotten all my bad karma in advance, so I'll HAPPILY take that stupid rule of 3 thing off your shoulders and pull a hail satan double whammy on the nasty bitch for you :)
and what did she write on the walls in blacklight? I wanna know.
As for the eraserboard, if you left the "die" message in tact, you can have her arrested for 4th degree assault...which is a threat of bodily harm. I also suggest a restraining order, and let the cops see what she wrote on the walls in blacklight paint.
I feel for her children...it's a sad and sorry situation for them to have to be in. I just hope they learn from mommy's psychosis instead of follow in those deep deep footsteps.
As glad as I am to hear of your ex's turnaround, just be wary and be prepared to make it without him if need be...also, to make him own up to his responsibilities.
don't be a stranger...and here's my email if you need to talk...
strangersangel@hotmail.com
or
vegancurse@radiofreesatan.com
I'm going to start using the latter email soon, so you may want to try there to break in the new box :)
take care, lovey. Don't be a stranger.


Re: Schizo back for a visit
by callei (plyn@plynlymon.com)
on Nov 07, 2001 - 09:42 PM
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Wow! congradulations and happy thoughts to you! Please dont be stranger sweetie, we miss you. I am so happy for you. And Mommy power should protect you from the evil wishes of those around you.
If there is anything I can do, let me know and tell us where to send the baby clothes and toys and stuff!
I know you are going to be a gorgeous mom!


Re: Schizo back for a visit
by Arthegarn on Nov 08, 2001 - 06:55 AM
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Hi Schizo! It’s so good to hear from you!

First of all, congratulations about your incoming motherhood. I am happy that you want to have the baby and you don’t think os hir as a burden for you. I pray for you and your pregnancy, for you to have taken and take the right choices, and for it all to go well and you both to have the lives you deserve.

It’s shocking to hear that your home has been invaded. And several times. You should called the cops and/or a lawyer at once! The USA is one of the countries with the strongest laws against trespassing, and as long as you did not leave the door open or anything like that to indicate an invitation, the case is yours in the wink of an eye. Not to mention, as bettie_x says, the death menace. That’s worth quite some bucks which at least could compensate a bit for all yor personal losses. Yeah, yeah, I know you don’t want anything to do with her and that you just want to forget her and buery all those memories as deep as possible, but this is the lawyer in me speaking. If you won’t have a restraining order at least tell her in front of a witness that she is neither welcome nor invited to enter your house without your express consent, and that no indice of invitation she might find has been left there for her.

I don’t care too much about sypathic magic. I would not worry about it. I have my own ways to drive off all these things, antway which perhaps you’d be able to use. As for the threefold rule... I guess you know the threefold rule, but it’s not that what prevents you from attacking her magically, is it? One thing I’ll say to those who want to hear: if you are to attack, you must do so only one time, and with sufficient power to completely destroy your enemy or s/he will raise again and destroy you. Garlic! You should have bitten her in the neck!

We all hope to see you again around real soon. We miss you. And good luck with your parents!



Re: Schizo back for a visit
by Rogue (judenouveau@yahoo.com)
on Nov 08, 2001 - 09:10 AM
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Girl power seems to be on the rise these days, good work! So which one of them is pulling all this dimestore novel witchcraft crap on you? You should let me have a crack at them, since a)i didn't learn my stuff from a llewellyn press book, and b)there's no rule of three for me.

Nice show of personal power on your part, just remember to keep it up in the future and you'll be fine.


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