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Re: Schizo's Wedding and the Honeymoon from Hell
by Schizo (Aranea@Spidersdance.com)
on Aug 27, 2004 - 02:23 AM
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I am losing patience, though. Losing it fast, and it scares me. I'm trying to NOT just snap, because that will help no one. I am so drained. The sheer amount of stress, both happy and sad stress, that I've had this year has left me completely emotionally wiped out, and I find myself crying at the drop of a hat now. (Especially since finding out about my dad). It's not depression, just exaustion. And Health and Human Services isn't returning my call, so I'm going to have to call again, and probably call a few hundred more times, and I really don't have the energy to deal with it. But I know I need to, and right now, too.
And when she's thirty, she can rot for all I care. Hopefully, I won't be seeing or hearing from her at that point. But I doubt she'll be grateful. She'll probably be blaming me for ruining her life, just like she does to everyone who doesn't do everything she wants them to. And I don't care if she does. If she decides to blame her problems on someone else, and thus never fix them, and has them grow and overwhelm her, then that's just fine with me. It won't be anything new.
What boggles my mind is how HARD it is to shake off shmengy people! It's like double shmeng - stupid people come and bring shit into your life, and then you have to go through more shit to make them go away. It really sucks to be the good guy sometimes.
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