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Re: Today I burried a child.
by bettie_x (strangersangel@hotmail.com)
on Aug 14, 2001 - 12:16 AM
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at least now I know i'm not retarded in feeling so horridly guilt ridden that I didn't check the tank when I saw the top partially opened...sometimes they would open it and crawl out and lay on the screen to cool off when it was hot, but never left the top, so I didn't think anything of it.....she would sit on the top of this big bottle by the tank, and the only thing I can think of is that she fell and wasn't able to get back up.....all her family looks for her occasionally, digging up the sawdust and looking under the toilet paper tubes....oh jeezus, I'm gonna cry again....goddammit.
I feel so horribly guilty about it, but they have a big tube they hide in and they hate it when I shake them out to make sure they were all there, and it was hot out so I didn't want to bug them....
Like I said to rogue, the neighbors must think I'm insane now, I was crouched in the bushes sobbing like a baby while I burried her.
Very few people understood how much my rats and other animals mean to me, and it is literally, like losing a child. She was young when I bought her, and she had gotten so big and healthy.
she was a good ratty....I live in an apartment complex, so I cant' really give her a headstone, but I couldn't drive all the way to my parents to bury her....but she's where no body will bug her, and she is under our window so she is near......I'm such a goon....
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