Artist's BLock Date Tuesday, April 23, 2024 - 04:29 PM PST Topic Rant When the world turns mad round oneself and every sound turns into a constant noise and the pressure is unbearable and the frantic feeling of stress falls down upon my shoulders, this is an Artists block. Where nothing I do can even compare to the vast array of images sprawled around, flashing within my subconscious. When the roles are changed and I shout at my dad to turn the stereo down because it is so loud that the bass is reverberating off the floorboards and knocking over my cup of water for my paints, knocking my hand out of balance, and pounding on the inside of my temples… Then, the remembrance of how he was bitching to me that I had turned the speaker up too loud before that it blew the speaker… :nods head: right. Every color I choose is wrong, every position I draw is wrong, and then when I find something I like, I cannot express it as it is portrayed within my minds eye. Cigarette after cigarette cannot control the pressure on my chest, something, willing it’s way out, something, but I don’t know what it is and I cant put it down in paint or pencil. It is there, a vibrant being of nothingness, controlling my mood until it appears. But how can I paint something that has not shown itself to me? How can I portray it’s visage without knowing what it is? How can I feel that it will be perfect, when I can get it right. But it won’t come out, and it won’t appear, and it is still waiting. Waiting until I have gone spiraling into the abyss, then appearing before I hit rock bottom. Just enough to take me back out, just enough to reserve my sanity to be broken another day. Just enough to make me happy. But not yet, No, not yet. I am smack dab in the dead fucking center of an Artist’s block. Random things to draw appear, random Ideas filtering through the ungodly mess, Several paintings are just merely waiting in the background. I shall probably never finish them. Though I have painted them a million times over in my head and several have been started. Until this singular entity is released, I can do nothing of consequence but wait. This article comes from Shmeng http://www.shmeng.com/ The URL for this story is: http://www.shmeng.com/modules.php?op=modload&name=News&file=article&sid=644