Schizo's Maternity and Other Generic Ramblings Date Thursday, April 25, 2024 - 04:29 PM PST Topic News Well, for all of you who have been asking how I've been doing, here's a little overview of what's going on with me. First of all, I have reached the milestone of 5 months of pregnancy. (Actually 23 weeks.) The baby, which the sonographer is pretty sure is a girl, is very active and kicking, especially when I'm trying to sleep! I'm doing really well, perfectly healthy and all that, with only the general odd aches and twinges that accompany swelling up like a slow-motion balloon. I gained about 5 inches around my waist in 3 weeks, which was a rather interesting thing to happen. From the front, I look the same as always, but from the side I look like a thick, middle-aged woman. I have yet to achieve that graceful, pregnant curve, and just look bulky right now, but give me a couple months, and I'll see about posting some pics! The baby's father is becoming somewhat more positively involved. We've established a fairly satisfying friendship, and he's doing what he can (little though it seems to be, he IS trying) to support me. We both realize that he is far too undependable, mainly through weakness rather than malice, for us to have any sort of "real" relationship. I've been looking (somewhat half-heartedly) for a job. Not really feeling very motivated. Besides, there's not really very much out there. The Psycho-Bitch has been leaving me alone recently, which is a huge blessing! With all the complications and confusions in my life, I really don't need to deal with a control freak with a very bewildering multiple personality disorder. So I've been exploring the fascinating world of food banks, welfare offices, and pregnancy resource centers. I COULD let it get me down, but I have decided rather to look at it as an educational experience, as an opportunity to see how so many people live their lives. I will never again look at a welfare family in the same way. I can see how easy it would be to sink down and become what is commonly known as "white trash". It is possible to maintain your dignity and self-respect in situations like this, but it can be difficult. But all-in-all I'm keeping my chin up. After all, spring is coming, even in snow-bound New Hampshire! Yesterday, I even had my windows open. I kept them open all night, and I could hear the stream that flows through the woods to the south of my house. We had a minor thunderstorm around midnight, and the rain washed away most of the snow, and I have 5 snowdrops out, and it's hard to be depressed when you have such riches as snowdrops and spring-swollen streams. Thanks everyone for your concern and support for me! It means alot! This article comes from Shmeng http://www.shmeng.com/ The URL for this story is: http://www.shmeng.com/modules.php?op=modload&name=News&file=article&sid=284