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Element-Masiya
Member   Posts: 56 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 26/8/2002 at 06:38 PM |
(WARNING: Before you read this, please let me remind you that doing you own
piercing can be dangerous, I would recommend that you have all piercings
done professionally.)
well, at breakfast in high school one last Tuesday, 8/20/2002, my and my
friends were having a good time as usual and then one of the punk/goth boys
in my grade started saying about how he can pierce himself and such. Well,
knowing most people in school, they donīt back up there words. I pierced my
left ear once before so I decided to challenge him to a piercing contest to
see if he could back up his words. He accepted and the rest of the day went
by.
I went home, grabbed some thin needles with the yellow ball at the end and
some alcohol pads and packed them in my book bag.
End of 8/20/02
The next day, when he sat down, I showed him then needles.
He then took one and shoved it through the webbing in between his left
thumb and finger. Well, I followed by doing the same thing. He then put
one through the skin all the way across the back of his left hand. Then I
put one in my left ear. Then one in my right ear. Then stabbed one in my
forearm muscle. He started to put one in his mouth (where the bottom lip
and gums meet), pushed it through and it came out of his chin. I just
shoved one right through my lip (where a labret is placed). Well, after the
experience, my hands just started shaking, not from the pain, but I guess
from the experience since I have never done any self-piercing besides my
left ear lobe and even then I felt queasy. But I thought it was cool and
went to class when the bell rang (after taking all the needles out of
course). What I donīt get was that everyone thought he one that dayīs worth
of piercing because of the needle through the chin piercing...I donīt know.
During break, I was talking to some of the same friends and just decided to
shove another needle through my lip again, didnīt affect me much but people
made some interesting faces when they saw a large needle sticking out of my
lip. During computer applications class, I stuck another one through my
right ear lobe then took it out for no real reason. After all that, I just
went home just thinking about what to do next.
End of 8/21/02
Well, I woke up and was thinking of what to do next so the movie "The
dentist" popped in my head and I remembered when one guy shoved a needle
through one patient’s cheek. So I slowly pushed one through my left
cheek and went to school like that. Robert, the guy I challenged, saw the
needle and said "Oh", and then he anxiously went to his book bag, grabbed a
safety pin, shoved it through his left cheek, and closed it
shut..."dammit", was what I was thinking to myself. But oh well. I took it
out and went to class. during break, I had yet another urge to pierce
myself so I shoved a needle through my left cheek and one in my right ear
without even feeling any pain (I guess I’m getting used to the
piercing stuff). During lunch, I went to the library, sat down and just
felt like piercing both my ear lobes and the webbing in between my left
thumb and finger. I took them out before my next class of course. During my
last class in electronics, I came up with this ingenious idea to pull a
"Jesus" and put a pin straight through my hand. Then I went home at the end
of school
End of 8/22/02
well, itīs Friday and I just want to end the week with something Robert
couldnīt beat so during the morning before my friend picked me up to go to
school. I began the 5 minute process of the deep hand piercing. First, I
put my hand down and pumped my hand a few times to find the veins. Then I
placed my hand flat on the pull out table thing where my keyboard is. I
then moved the veins around and placed the need in its proper place and
then I stuck it through. I thought it would be a synch until I found the
muscle right behind my palm. It was a sharp pain at first until I started
cursing at it then jabbed it through and pushed and pushed until it went
through the thick skin on my palm. I went to school and Robert couldnīt
top it which was pretty funny. He stuck a need through the skin on his
neck, and then I did the same thing. Took the needles out and then went to
class. During lunch, some friends heard about the piercing thing and I
decided to shove a needle through my left cheek. I did it, and then I stuck
one through my right cheek. Unfortunately the school cop and assistant
principal saw me doing it and called me over. "Shit. I’m busted", I
thought to myself. The assistant principal just gave me a warning that I
could get suspended for the piercing. The cop said something about showing
me a book with scriptures in it later. Iīm almost positive that he is going
to show me a bible. Oh well, end of Friday.
Today, 8/25/02, I didnīt feel like piercing anything. I went to school and
found out that Robert had pierced both of his nipples. "Sigh" I thought.
The piercing thing was starting to get boring to me extremely fast. And
well, once I wake up tomorrow before school. Iīm going to go pierce both my
nipples probably and then my nose or something. Well thatīs the story. In
just three days I have done 22 piercing which I tallied up on a piece of
paper. I forgot when I did some of them that is why I haven’t placed
them in my above story.
my piercings that i have done myself~~~~~~~:-: Bottom lip piercing- 2: left
cheek - 4: right cheek - 4: left ear lobe - 4: right ear lobe -4: through
left hand -1: webbing between left thumb and finger - 2: skin on throat
-1:
what iīm doing/have done may appear stupid but itīs just something to do.
what does everyone think anyway (donīt flame a lot please) ____________________
Why build if destruction is only to come?
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Anonymous
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posted on 26/8/2002 at 06:48 PM |
As I read, Iīm picturing this, and wincing. A lot. And gasping. A lot. And
trying to get the picture out of my head of a human porcupine.
I am soon to pierce my nose myself, and have already done my ears, but
thatīs the limit for me.. Anywhere else and Iīd be on the floor crying like
a baby.
Interesting thing to do though. Whatever floats your boat. Iīve watched
someone do their own tattoos all over their arms, legs, and chest with a
heated needle and broken pen over the course of three months, and Iīm still
trying to figure out whether that hurts more or less than what youīve
done.. ____________________
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PrismKat
Occasional Poster   Posts: 18 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 26/8/2002 at 06:49 PM |
| Oops, that was me. Forgot to log in.. -.- ____________________
I'm defective!
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Sticupus
Fanatic   Posts: 254 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 26/8/2002 at 07:47 PM |
This is a bad idea, no one should do their own piercings unless they are a
trained professional. However people dumb enough to do it improperly and
not mend their gaping wounds may have infections and amputations similar to
that of a leprosy patient. This will kill off the really dumb ones and
proceed to make the shmeng community less pretty and more like a plague
survivor compound. I highly do not recommend this to anyone (unless you let
me watch as your extremities rot and fall to the ground). BodMod is a like
sex, it is a gift you truly cant give to yourself: other wise its just
jerking off.
Thank you 
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The OBOLISK is Divine.
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ickgirl
Member  Posts: 99 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 26/8/2002 at 08:30 PM |
christ!
and please, people, realize that you are probably not going to steralize a
needle enough to kill things like hepatitis.
(public service announcement)
and yes, i pierced myself as a younginī. I do NOT recommend it. ____________________
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Anonymous
Posts: 116 Registered: 14/4/2002 Status: Offline
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posted on 26/8/2002 at 08:32 PM |
| Eh, itīs the same as self-mutilation and I know that nearly all of us have
been or still are on that boat. ____________________
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AloneSoul
Fanatic  Posts: 522 Registered: 6/7/2002 Status: Offline
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posted on 26/8/2002 at 08:39 PM |
| And me too. ____________________
 but at least you know, just how much pain there is in living
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bettie_x
Extreme Fanatic   Posts: 1570 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 26/8/2002 at 11:41 PM |
This is not a flame tho it is sure to sound like one. Please take it
constructively as possible.
STOP IT.
I get so irritated when I see some kid in my store asking for body jewelery
to replace some nasty saftey pin stuffed through god knows what that is now
not even resembling a body part īcause itīs all red and swollen and crusty
and OOZING.
Itīs RETARDED. Something to do?! THere HAS to be something OTHER than
THAT.
You arenīt a piercer.
You donīt have proper instruments.
You donīt have proper sterilization techniques.
You donīt know how to care for each one (and yes they are very different
healing/care times and types for every part of the body)
You donīt know what you are doing.
You WILL fuck something up.
You WILL get an infection.
You WILL get a huge ass scar.
STOP IT.
I hope you have had a recent tetanus shot because youīre practically
BEGGING for lockjaw.
OR WORSE.
Youīll hit a nerve and paralyze something or get a massive infection from
filthy sewing needles or improper care.
Cīmon man, canīt you just arm wrestle or beat each other up or engage in
the many many ways guys posture and be manly and prove theyīre manly and
shit? Something that doesntī involve shoving shit through nerves, tendons,
and muscle and fucking up your hand for life?
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Trapped in time. Surrounded by evil. Low on gas.
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MorteAscendo
Member  Posts: 190 Registered: 6/5/2002 Status: Offline
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posted on 26/8/2002 at 11:46 PM |
| AHHHH....but the ignorance of highschoolers make me feel so much
better...(sighs) thanks...i needed that one. ____________________
"Roses are Red, Violets are Blue. I'm a schizophrenic, and so am I".
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Abbadon
Fanatic  Posts: 499 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 27/8/2002 at 10:26 AM |
| The hum of police search helicopters is so relaxing. ____________________
Light is changing to shadow, and casting a shroud over all we have known.
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ickgirl
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posted on 27/8/2002 at 11:36 AM |
THANK YOU bettie, I was right there with you, but holding back a bit today.
I guess Iīm tired.
oh, and to the person who brought up self-mutilation, letīs not make the
assumption that everyone on this board self-mutilates, or at one time did.
are you assuming we all self-mutilate because youīre assuming we all wear
black thereby assuming weīre all sad and disturbed, thereby assuming we all
cut ourselves?
please, just donīt. ____________________
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VampCourt
Fanatic  Posts: 293 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 27/8/2002 at 01:54 PM |
I pierced a friend once. it turned out okay because i was very strict with
the sterilization.. but still.. i wouldnt advise doing it.. better off
going and getting it professionally done.
i agree with bettie and ickgirl...  ____________________
"Thou shalt not be afraid of the dark, nor of graveyards nor ghosts nor the
devil, for thou art scarey and mean." -The Goth commandments
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AloneSoul
Fanatic Posts: 522 Registered: 6/7/2002 Status: Offline
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posted on 27/8/2002 at 03:18 PM |
Eh, itīs the same as self-mutilation and I know that nearly all of us have
been or still are on that boat.
"oh, and to the person who brought up self-mutilation, letīs not make the
assumption that everyone on this board self-mutilates, or at one time did.
are you assuming we all self-mutilate because youīre assuming we all wear
black thereby assuming weīre all sad and disturbed, thereby assuming we all
cut ourselves?"
Nope, I didnīt say that, if I did, Iīd be a ignorant fool. A good portion
of my friends do practice or have practiced self-mutilation in its many
forms and self-piercing is one which I consider a act of self-mutilation.
To me, itīs no different than self-suspension * hooks threw the flesh*,
cutting or self scarifcation.*cant spell it properly* I do believe that if
this is done properly (and safely) then it is a beautiful art.
I said that NEARLY (not most or all) have been in this boat because MANY
people during their teenage years have practiced this act. Depression comes
to all of us and self-mutilation is a more common act than one would
expect. I also didnt include the assumption that everyone wearing black is
disturbed or sad. I wear all black and my arms are covered with scars; but
these acts I did long before I started to dress this way.
Forgive me for any confusion.
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Psychopixi
Fanatic  Posts: 376 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 27/8/2002 at 05:49 PM |
Iyp!
I couldnīt pierce myself. Iīm way too much of a coward to deal with the
pain, and I sure as hell know Iīd fuck it up. Iīve thought about doing it,
but I know I couldnīt sterlize the needle, or manage to put it through
without damaging something en route.
My boyfriend is talking about piercing his lip himself. Heīs only 15, and
his parents refuse to let him have his lip pierced. Until heīs 16 in
December he canīt get it done professionally because you need to be 16
without parental permission. Iīve told him that he should just wait it out,
a few months isnīt that big a sacrifice for the sake of getting a clean,
sterile and professionally done piercing.
How on earth did you think up the piercing competition anyhow? ____________________
Do not fear death so much, but rather the inadequate life.
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bettie_x
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 1570 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 27/8/2002 at 09:06 PM |
*warning, this is going to be a little long and itīs not aimed at anyone
here, just on the topic in general*
It WASNīT common when I was in school, and itīs rather disturbing to think
than any depressed teenager these days (which most ALL teenagers suffer
SOME sort of "depression" due to hormones and new pressures in life) would
commonly resort to self mutilation...for control, for attention, or to be
cool or "tough" or mysterious or look strange or frightening. Fuck that.
My opinion, get a life, or walk a mile in someone with REAL problemīs shoes
and see how cool it is to be mentally ill.
For most people with a clinical compulsion to mutilate, itīs to gain a sort
of control when they feel they have none...they can control their pain, so
it gives them something to latch onto. Itīs a mental condition. Itīs
also, for most, a source of shame (at least during the period they are
mutilating and for some even after theyīve got the help they needed) and
most people who mutilate donīt tell anyone about it or do it in places that
arenīt visible. I see so many fucking kids with shit carved into their
arms "īcuz weīre BORED" or " īcuz itīs COOL" or " īcuz it shows my PAIN"
Itīs always visible...itīs treīs cool to be angsty, and hurting, and to let
EVERYONE and their mother how TORTURED they are.
I had ONE friend "confess" his self mutilation to me when I was
younger...it was all hidden, nobody knew about it, and it really really
upset him to see the few other idiots running around with their forearms
cut wearing teeshirts, making sure everyone saw them, their self inflicted
wounds a source of pride when his were a source of shame, because he KNEW
it wasnīt healthy, KNEW it wasnīt normal...and THEY treated it like it was
fun to be crushingly depressed.
The ONLY other person who I"ve actually seen self mutilation on would make
you sick if you could have seen what she did to herself. Iīm thinking the
only reason you could see the damage she did was because she RAN OUT OF
PLACES that were hidden.
This poor girl was 13 (this was two years ago), and a customer of mine at a
different store I worked at years ago. She was overweight, silent,
excruciatingly shy and reclusive, never made eye contact, and always had a
parent with her. There was no healthy skin left on her arms. They were
literally a network of HUNDREDS of criscrossing scars...some a quarter to a
half an inch wide, some fresh, some frighteningly old. The inner parts of
her arms from her wrists to her armpits were nothing but a series of
SLASHES like train tracks...so close together that the insides of her arms
were rippled like a potato chip, and overlayed with SEVERAL failed suicide
attempts.
How did I see this if most self mutilators are ashamed? She took off her
long sleeved sweater she always wore no matter the weather, to try on a
jacket, then take it off. I saw the crushingly shy girl first, then saw
the damage after...it made me want to cry. 13 guys, most of the scars
old...how young did she start? 10? 11? Makes you think about it a litte
more, doesnīt it. Are you so sad you have to cut yourself? Sadder than a
10 year old slashing herself to pieces and who canīt even wear a t-shirt
now?
Other people who "mutilate" by piercing or flaying or suspension, that is
totally different, and for most itīs just a part of life, not a contest,
not an attention getter, and nothing to brag about. To them, practicing
the occasional suspension is like what going to church for xmas is, or
going to a beach. THatīs art, and as for the attention part, ask any of
them if they get a little pretentious thrill everytime someone gawks and
asks that EVERY irritating question..."GAWSH...didnīt that HURT?"
THe only thing "pierced" on me are 1/2" stretched ears...and I friggin HATE
that question...but it comes with the territory I guess. Iīll deal with
it.
ANd as for home piercing, I firmly stand with it being fucking STUPID.
WHen some little brat comes in with a fucking saftey pin shoved through god
knows what and itīs fucking oozing all over and they ask me what to do to
"fix" it, I make fun of them. In front of their friends, in front of their
parents, in front of everyone nearby...man, you better get to a doctor
before your goddamned FACE is going to fall off. Yeah, having a pin
through your eyebrow is RAD until it rotts off your head. Hey, get a good
look at this kid īcause he wonīt take out the infected saftey pin shit in
his face and itīs going to ROTT AND FALL OFF.
Why do I do this? because the only way to get through to most of these
kids is to hit them the only place that matters to any of them anymore,
their PRIDE. They did it to be COOL, so when theyīre made to look
seriously UNCOOL they actually think about it.
Another peeve of the home piercers, the nurses that come in with their kids
and think theyīre capable of piercing. DO you know how many motherīs Iīve
had to send away to a doctor because they fucked up thier kid?
"Iīm a NURSE...I handle needles all DAY. I KNOW what Iīm DOING."
YEah, well youīre a nurse not a goddamned piercer, and if you fuck up your
kidīs navel/eyebrow/lip or whatever, itīs on YOUR goddamned conscience. I
donīt give them advice, I donīt give them shit, I repeat for them to go to
a professional until they get mad, sick of me, or listen.
You have to have a liscence to pierce for a REASON.
THere is an age limit for a REASON.
Itīs expensive for a REASON.
You know if a piercer did to a kid what Iīve seen some moms do to their own
children, the piercer would be charged with mutilation of a minor. If you
could only see a parentīs face when you tell them theyīve mutilated their
child. That it WILL leave a scar. THEY donīt think EITHER and that
concerns me more than anything else.
PLEASE everyone listen...quit shoving shit through your bodies, itīs not
cool, itīs not safe, itīs not cute, and you canīt masturbate when you fuck
up all the tendons/nerves/muscles in your hand from shoving needles through
it.
Just think of all those cold, lonely, handless nights.
Besides, my husbandīs got you all beat. Heīs got a LUNG
piercing...TWICE...so THERE.
NYAH 
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Trapped in time. Surrounded by evil. Low on gas.
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AloneSoul
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posted on 27/8/2002 at 11:33 PM |
Since its 2am and Ive downed a case and some more Smirnoffs, illl let
everyone in my life and the things ive done.
My family when and before i was born was a poor one. My parents at times
had only one dollar to their names. We lived in the shitty part of town, if
you walked out at night and you where white, youd be jumped. We stayed at
home a lot, tensions ran high, my family is dysfunctional.
My parents were violent, my mother would slap us around, come after us with
frying pans, using every curse, my father....ugh, belts and whip us as we
ran or wed play the slap me game, we came too close, wed be slapped with
great force.
My brother and my sister, we always fought. We fought for everything,
fists, teeth and nails. I came after my bro with a butcher knife when i was
younger and he pointed a shot gun at me when I was 10. My father and my
brother would get into fist fights during christmass day.
That was my family when I was younger and threw a few of my rteenage years.
I wasnt popular at elementary school. I didnt have any friends and I got my
ass kicked constantly. I came home with swollen eyes and such.
The first time i tried to end my life I was ten.
I can go on about this.
Now, if you say Im a fucking lyer, go ahead, I dont care what you people
think, i know that what i say is true and thats all that matters to me, im
not here for sympathy or to convince you that my story is the most tragic
of you all. Im not telling you this because of that...
Probably because im pretty buzzed right now and were on the topic of
multilation now.
I need another drink.
Ok, im back.
I had a crappy childhood. Got that out . High school came along, times
changed, I got bigger and stronger, much much much stronger. I swear, times
got worse. Every single one of my girlfriends was either sexual assulted or
raped. One of my closests friends slit her arms up badly and hung herself
out her window. Another was shot by a gang. My uncle is probably dead now,
he went back to his drug habit and left his family in debt. My friend died
about 20 days ago. Im losing someone else to cancer. Blah, blah, blah,
bitch, bitch bitch, you get the idea.
My own head wasnt good during my times as a child or as a teen or now. I
was always depressed, down, away from people. You can see that in the
pictures of me a s a kid, i was away and looking mad or sad. I felt the
world was on my back, everyone hated me, i saw and still see things that
arent there.
As a teen i cut my arms, my legs, my chest up badly. I burned myself many
times with lighters and stabbed my leg with a long razor blade along with
cuting myslef up. I lost some feeling in my hands from my actions. My legs
are weaker than they should be they loook like as.....beetttie said, a
railraod track. My rug still ahs blood stains on it. My arms, my legs are
covered with scars. I didnt cut myself to be cool nor did i do it to be
tough. I wanted to feel something and i wanted to punish myself for
lettting so much pain come into this world.and to the friends that i had
who i lost to my stupidity.
I tried to end ym life a few times. The first was i tried to jump out of my
own window while i twas shut. If i surivived i put a bunc h of marbles on
the floor and would tell everyone i fell. After that, i tried to drink
vinager and other crap. I drunk everclear, vodka mixed with aftershock and
pills.*paxel and stuff, the damn shrink wanted to start me off on lithium
or some shit, he siad that i was bipolar and or boredorline personalities,
i of coruse didnt tell him shit, i jus fucked with him, talking to him
about football and his other patients, i didnt talk to him once about my
feelings, i stopped seeing him after i got tired of taking a blood test
every fucking week, he said soon if i took some type of meds that id have
to do that evey week to make sure the meds i took haddnt become toxic in my
bvlood* I sliced myself up and hoped to bled.
So thats my story. Those are some of things hat i did to myself. I didnt
want to be cool, i refused attention and hit my bleeding wounds the next
few days afyer i did perform those acts. Now i dont want any sympath and
if yuo dont believe me, idnont care, just dont flame me. i had too much
to driunk and my tounge is a lot loser when i drink.
Every life has a story and it would take a life time to tell each ____________________
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AloneSoul
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posted on 28/8/2002 at 11:31 AM |
Ack, I was working on two six packs. A case, Christ, I doubt even I could
finish a case.
Anywho, self piercing, just be careful. Youīre not going to listen to our
ramblings most likely so atleast exersize great caution while doing this. ____________________
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Element-Masiya
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posted on 28/8/2002 at 05:31 PM |
lol, i use a torch lighter for about 30 seconds on the needles and use
alcohol to kill the bacteria so thereīs no real harm 8-) .
~I swallow razor blades, spit out blood,
cut out my heart, and gave to my love
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AloneSoul
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posted on 28/8/2002 at 05:37 PM |
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Element-Masiya
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posted on 28/8/2002 at 05:56 PM |
| just as i said at the beginning of my first post. it is a dangerous thing
to do. If you arenīt careful you hit a major vein and suffer from internal
bleeding such as the one right above the eyebrow. i myself donīt see it as
so. more of a masochist type practice because i love feeling the lite pain
as it goes through the body and just the thought of a needle going through
your own body by your own hand just makes you want to do it over again. but
since iīve done over 20 of them in 3 days, iīm starting to loose the
tingling feeling so i donīt do it much anymore now :cry: . ____________________
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