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Registered: 31/12/1969
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  posted on 25/8/2010 at 05:48 PM
I know I am not the only one who gets sucked into drab, dull, and lifeless routines. It's pretty easy to do. Sadly, there are many people who get completely engulfed by their routines, and forget that there is more to life than the basic structures of survival.

Shmeng always seemed to me to be full of people who knew how to live, not just go through the motions. This website has slowed down to a trickle, but what I'm curious about is, have the people who used to come here also died down to trickles? If not, what are you doing that keeps your life from being more than a series of inhalations and exhalations?

For me, the big thing is firespinning. Been doing it for a year now, and I've been throwing huge amounts of effort into it. To me, it is art and dance and adrenaline and spirituality all in one, and it challenges and satisfies me on so many levels, I can't even begin to name them. It's opened me up to a whole community of really awesome people, broadened my horizons, and really been a catalyst for some pretty deep change in my approach to life.

So, you lurkers (I know you're out there!), if you can be induced to log in and write a few lines, let me know what you're up to that gives your life excitement and dimension. Big or little, I don't care what - just let me know that you haven't all turned into a bunch of near-zombies, with no spark. I'd like to know that, even if we aren't all gathered together here, interacting as we used to, that we are at least scattered around this world, adding that little extra something that makes it all worth while.

 

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"You can tell by the scars on my arms and the cracks in my hips and the dents in my car and the blisters on my lips that I'm not the carefullest of girls." - Dresden Dolls, "Girl Anachronism"

 

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  posted on 27/8/2010 at 04:26 AM
I wish I was doing something more than going through the motions. Lately it seems all I do is work and stress over money. Blah, that is crap. I need to get out more. I used to perform at a Renaissance Festival, but I haven't done that for a couple years, which sometimes makes me sad.

 

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When nothing is left - what are you standing on? - Drake of LS

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Posts: 317
Registered: 31/12/1969
Status: Online

  posted on 7/9/2010 at 12:38 PM
My life was in danger of fizzling out while I was still in Seattle. Moving to Hawaii is what prevented that from happening. Life is too short to live someplace that isn't beautiful. There's a bunch of other things that have contributed - MRD for example. Also - BDSM, playing music again, being a rockstar (those are two different things), playing outdoors, and being someplace where it's possible to have a larger circle of friends locally but still find them all interesting. All of that is probably also what has kept me from putting much energy into this site over the last several years. I don't mind though. I miss this place, but living is fun too.

 

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So Sayeth Me

 

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Posts: 897
Registered: 31/12/1969
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  posted on 7/9/2010 at 04:15 PM
Devin, I'm so glad you saved yourself from fizzling! I found myself in grave danger of that a couple of years ago, and I distinctly remember being aware that I had a choice - the easy one of sliding down into the kind of pointless depressive state that I seemed headed towards, or bucking the current and insisting on and fighting for a kind of life that was actually worth living. I absolutely refuse to be the stereotypical struggling single mom who lives life like they inhabit a dead end. I'm not in a dead end. I have my limitations, sure, but there is so much I can do still. Playing with fire is just the beginning. I have not yet begun to live.

 

____________________
"You can tell by the scars on my arms and the cracks in my hips and the
dents in my car and the blisters on my lips that I'm not the carefullest of
girls." - Dresden Dolls, "Girl Anachronism"

 

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Posts: 897
Registered: 31/12/1969
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  posted on 19/9/2010 at 06:24 AM
Speaking of not yet beginning to live - Schizo and the Kindergothen are entering a whole new venue of fun and excitement - roller derby! We're welcoming suggestions for derby names. Any ideas?

 

____________________
"You can tell by the scars on my arms and the cracks in my hips and the />
dents in my car and the blisters on my lips that I'm not the carefullest
of

girls." - Dresden Dolls, "Girl Anachronism"

 

Extreme Fanatic




Posts: 1810
Registered: 31/12/1969
Status: Offline

  posted on 19/10/2010 at 08:48 AM
Devin, I know exactly what you mean... I had my breakdown, spent 16 weeks in the loonie bin... got out and was just... a wreck, fading away...

Then Sears fired me from my tier 5 customer service position and I moved back to new orleans... picked my movie making back up...

With the creative process came revitalization...

 

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The earth turns on a tilted axis - just doing the best it can.

Hohenheim of Light~Full Metal Alchemist

 

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  posted on 7/11/2010 at 06:21 PM
I don't think I've become a trickle swirling the drain. Quite the opposite, I have become well rounded and I have enhanced my knowledge and understanding of life. I live it a lot more than I ever have. But, it doesn't mean I don't still need you all to. Wherever life takes me, you're all still family to me.

 

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"People always say what we are looking for is a meaning for life…I don't think that's what we're looking for. I think what we're looking for is the experience of being alive." -Joseph Campbell

 

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Registered: 27/9/2002
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  posted on 11/11/2010 at 05:32 PM
Let me think on it a moment...I've managed to get a few things sorted out and going smoothly now...got rid of some major sources of stress...still happily married to the same great guy...and we've been very careful with any and all olive branches extended to and from relatives...now we keep it on a level we are comfortable with...not with how we're expected to be...and we've dropped those proverbial olive branches we were not comfortable with...and we're much happier now...we used to tiptoe around some situations...and now we've decided...we are how we are...like us for us or don't like us for us...and while we've always felt that way...and tried to be that way and just pack it in when it stressed out the other side...well, now we figure...hey we have to deal with them as they are...so, now they get to deal with us how we are.............that's the long to way of saying that it's really good to just be us and to be happy being us...ohh...and btw...I am, as always, still involved in animal rights

 

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"When choosing between two evils, I always like to try the one I've never tried before." ~Mae West


 

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Registered: 5/8/2004
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  posted on 28/4/2012 at 07:40 PM
Academia. I've just got some funding to do some guided research on the reception of late 19th-early 20th century American female authors in Britain. That's qutie cool.

Aside from that, I've spent the last 5 years (i.e. since I last posted) working for Games Workshop until I decided to get back into education, and then studying English Literature with Creative Writing.

On the personal side, I still play the flute and have started to meditate. The latter hardly lifts me far above the madding crowd, but it's a better way to spend half an hour than watching TV.

Do I think that I've prevented fizzle? No. I feel like my soul has died; I can't get excited about anything much anymore and thinking about current affairs and politics fills me with rage. Instead of a burning passion to see the world change for the better, I just feel a passionate desire to see the world burn...for the better.

 

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Eritis sicut Deus scientes bonum et malum.

And the third angel sounded, and a troll army did descend upon the world.

 

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Posts: 246
Registered: 31/12/1969
Status: Offline

  posted on 4/6/2014 at 05:32 AM
I just logged in today on a lark. Life does tend to pass by way too quickly at this point. I have been tattooing the last 6 years or so and have now opened my own tattoo shop. I still paint when I have the time. But most of our lives revolve around our 3 year old. It is difficult to find much time for anything else really.

 

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When the world is over, will we wonder how it began?

 
 


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