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Author: Subject: a death.

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  posted on 18/3/2007 at 09:18 PM
My nono (grandfather) died on the 10th. It hit me like a train. I mean, I know he was going to die; he had been in the old folks home for 3 years. He wasnt walking, eating, walking. He wasnt doing anything really. The last time I went to see him he said I want to go home, Ive been here for 2 weeks, loud, clear, and in Italian.

His death totally shattered my world. As I got my chance to pay my last respects to him I said a prayer and kissed him forehead as a final goodbye. But even that startled me. As stupid as it sounds, I forgot dead people were cold. And that was it for me. I stood there and it finally clicked. Hes dead. As I watched them lover him into his casket and close the coffin I had to grab my nona (grandmother) because she had almost fainted.

I have had very little time to think about what has happened and just now Im being bombarded with emotions. I just, I dont know anymore. Im so lost

 

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  posted on 18/3/2007 at 09:23 PM
I wish I had words for you... but... I am no magician...I have no magic words for you...

to be honest, I have had people close to me die, but I barely understand how I felt... so I am of little help here... you ARE in my thoughts however

 

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  posted on 18/3/2007 at 09:50 PM
He is somewhere he would rather be, despite missing all of you so terribly much. You should grieve for him as you see fit, but understand that he was probably ready for the transiton and probably wants you to feel as little grief as possible. I don't know anything about your religioius background, and for that fact I apologise in advance and also invite you to contact me privately, but I feel that he probably meant for you to remember him while also rememebering that you are alive, and as such you should live your life to the fullest. I committed suicide thirteen years ago, and that was what I thought for myself as I relised my life had ended.

 

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  posted on 18/3/2007 at 11:21 PM
It's always hard to know how deeply things will hit you like that, and it sounds like you did what you felt was right for you at that time and that's really the only way to do things in those situations. My thoughts go out to you and yours.

 

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  posted on 19/3/2007 at 01:50 AM
*hugs*

 

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  posted on 19/3/2007 at 06:34 AM
I'm very sorry for your loss. I lost my grandfather a few years ago and while I was expecting it, it still hit me like a ton of bricks. My mom had been taking care of him in her home for the last 6-7 years of his life. And while I will never forget the first time I came home from college and he didn't remember who I was, I will also never forget the time I spent with him before his health and memory began to fail.
It took a long time to be able to bring up even the good memories, but time is the great healer, and I hope you'll be able to do the same soon.
*hugs*

 

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  posted on 19/3/2007 at 12:16 PM
I'm bad at these so if it seems off im sorry. I'm very sorry for the loss of your grandfather and what feeling you are going through. Its always hard losing someone you love but time will heal. Hopefully when it is all said and done you can reunite with him and laugh about all the good times you shared together. My thoughts go out to you, and your family.

 

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  posted on 19/3/2007 at 04:17 PM
*hugs*
My great-grandma died about two weeks ago... =(
so I feel you here...

 

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  posted on 19/3/2007 at 08:58 PM
I appreciate all of your input toward my situation. Im grateful for your support and I take your advice to heart.

Thank you all.

*hugs*

 

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  posted on 20/3/2007 at 11:54 AM
no problem at all. youve got all the support in the world from me and everyone here.

*hugs back... if its cool with you*

 

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  posted on 22/3/2007 at 04:23 AM
i have found... that going to the most remote spot you can find and screaming at the world... while effectively futile... spawns a form of catharsis...

 

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  posted on 22/3/2007 at 08:05 AM
Whats up with all this death? On the 11th a good friend of mine was killed at the age of 25 by a drunk driver on his way home from work. He was close enough to home where the accident happened that his girlfriend heard the accident. The man was drunk going over 60 in a 35 ran a red light and right into my Matthew. He still had the PapaJohns thing on top of his car. He died instantly. He was the prettiest little goth boy. I shared a lot with him over the years and this is the first time I have had someone die that I was that close with....Oddly enough the last time we hung out was at a cemetary talking about death and what not. Life is short....way too short. Be careful and let people know how you feel. I never got the chance to tell Matthew how much he meant to me.


*Hugs to you PF* Sorry for your loss.

 

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  posted on 22/3/2007 at 04:21 PM
damn. im sorry for your loss sardonic-pain.

 

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  posted on 22/3/2007 at 04:46 PM
This month has been a weird month for death. I just found out today that my good friend james, his friend commited suicide last night. We found it out over the p.a system and the whole day a really dark vibe hung over the school. but whats really sick is that a few people cracked jokes at this guys expense saying/calling him an "emo-kid" and made fun of how he killed himself.

 

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  posted on 23/3/2007 at 09:27 AM
That's what they did with my friend Chelsea, when she ended up hanging herself, while she was trying to get "high" by... asphictiation? i dont know how to spell it, but thats the word, in other words she was trying to get a high from choking herself with a belt around her neck.

 

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learned my lessons, this is the beginning of the future]]

 

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  posted on 23/3/2007 at 11:51 AM
thats how this kid died. he hung himself but instead of a belt he hung himself with a dog leash. its sad because from what i heard the signs were everywhere but he just kept on getting ignored.

 

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Aim for the head, Shaun of the dead.

 

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  posted on 25/3/2007 at 08:20 PM
thanaopsis, i apreciate your reply to me durring my time of weakness and i now intend to help you. stop being a noisy idiot. all i see from you is "oh ya that happend to me" and "i had one of those to". stop trying to agree with ever one and act as if you have experienced all of lifes perils. please excuse my if i am speaking out of turn, but your really annoying me.

 

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  posted on 25/3/2007 at 08:37 PM
'scuse? I thought he was just making conversation. And it has been a very weird month for death. Very weird.

 

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  posted on 26/3/2007 at 01:41 AM
? Pale-Face?

Only issue I have with Thanatopsis (gotta find the boy a nickname... that takes too long to type) is that he freaks out occasionally and panics about being out of line...

And I count myself lucky that I don't seem to have a part in this strange month of death. Knock on wood...

 

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dents in my car and the blisters on my lips that I'm not the carefullest of
girls." - Dresden Dolls, "Girl Anachronism"

 

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  posted on 26/3/2007 at 03:06 AM
pale-face. wasnt aware i was trying to be mister relate and enjoy. like maranda-jade said... i was just making conversation.

 

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