MystryssRavynDarque
Extreme Fanatic   Posts: 648 Registered: 24/9/2002 Status: Offline
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posted on 22/9/2004 at 08:24 AM |
| Seek the blue space my child...if you don't get it from that you're fucked. ____________________
"People always say what we are looking for is a meaning for life…I don't
think that's what we're looking for. I think what we're looking for is the
experience of being alive." -Joseph Campbell
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pale-face
Fanatic   Posts: 478 Registered: 22/9/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 1/10/2004 at 10:18 PM |
i'v had a hell of a time reading these posts and come my time to respond i
believe i will go right back to the origins of the thread and scream a bit.
in the time I have spent churning my mind into a mathematical machine only
to discover that my only chances of being employed are in the labour forces
field makes my want to not only go on a long over due killing rampage or to
just pain give up. the fucking system is flawed. stick it to the man. no.
kill the man. take over his thrown. and make things right. there is civil
unrest but no one is acting upon our opinions. just because we have a
democracy doesn’t mean we have to have no violence. a good ass kicking once
and a wile never hurt any one. no pun intended what so ever. if only to
regain my senses and get to have my veins pumping with furry ridden blood
would be amazing about now. ____________________
fucking classy.
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W0rmW00d
Fanatic  Posts: 355 Registered: 5/8/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 2/10/2004 at 07:45 AM |
has someone just started to figure out how impotent they are in the real
world?
how delicious. it hurts doesnt it. ____________________
Eritis sicut Deus scientes bonum et malum.
And the third angel sounded, and a troll army did descend upon the world.
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pale-face
Fanatic Posts: 478 Registered: 22/9/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 2/10/2004 at 01:43 PM |
| It does. ____________________
fucking classy.
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Sailor_Sadist
Coward   Posts: 10 Registered: 10/10/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 10/10/2004 at 08:47 PM |
Please excuse my newbie'ness, if it shines through. I am merely testing the
waters tonight.
Screaming.. screaming. .. ah...
When I was really little, 5 or 6, I did what every young child does. I
played house. I pretended to be an adult, to be "grown up". I pretended to
do almost all the things I saw adults around me do, and I loved
it.
I now find myself in hysterics at my ignorant desire to be treated like an
adult. I hate it. No, forgive me. I don't hate it completely. I hate
aspects of it, which may take away from my ability to be angry, but at this
point, I don't care.
I hate the fact that I'm 17, and I'm treated like a 35 year old by my
father. I hate that I have sat through discussion after discussion about
money problems, relationship problems, living arrangement problems, etc. I
hate that I have been expected to offer credible advice to him, in
very adult situations. I hate that my childhood ended age 7. I hate
that I knew too much from such a young age. (Still believing, however, that
I will benefit in the future from my experiences. But still, going through
it sucks.) I hate that I can never get any of my innocence back.
I hate that I'm mad about being treated like a grown up, when I know its
what I wanted.
Maybe hate is too strong of word, but again, right now - at this very
second, I don't care.
I dislike the fact that I try to let this go over and over again, and I
can't.
I'm semi-regressing into the childhood I don't feel I got to enjoy
enough... is that wrong?
Are we growing up too fast all the time?
Do we all hate it?...
or am I blind to a blessing of early knowledge...
Forgive me for my rant.
[Edited on 11/10/2004 by Sailor_Sadist]
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BlueLinn
Fanatic  Posts: 246 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 15/10/2004 at 03:28 PM |
never mind, shit doesn't matter.
[Edited on 10/17/2004 by BlueLinn] ____________________
When the world is over, will we wonder how it began?
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pale-face
Fanatic Posts: 478 Registered: 22/9/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 15/10/2004 at 04:36 PM |
| i know where your coming from, my uncle just died of lung cancer, leukemia
and failure of the liver... fucking fatality. ____________________
fucking classy.
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feralucce
Extreme Fanatic  Posts: 1810 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 16/10/2004 at 02:01 AM |
| you know what... that is not cool... there are people here from our town
Linn... and posting names, and information like what you did last night on
here is not fucking cool... This may be a zone free from the karma scripts,
but as your friend... all I can say is WHAT THE FUCK??? ____________________
The earth turns on a tilted axis - just doing the best it can.
Hohenheim of Light~Full Metal Alchemist
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feralucce
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 1810 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 16/10/2004 at 08:16 PM |
| ya know... that's not what I was talking about... I was mainly concerned
with the fact that damion saw it... and came to me asking... but hey, take
it how you want ____________________
The earth turns on a tilted axis - just doing the best it can.
Hohenheim of Light~Full Metal Alchemist
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bettie_x
Extreme Fanatic  Posts: 1570 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 17/10/2004 at 12:27 AM |
if nobody minds me asking, who exactly is "the man"?
He seems to be everywhere, sticking "it" (what is "it" also?) to everyone
at once. kinda like god. ____________________
Trapped in time. Surrounded by evil. Low on gas.
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BlueLinn
Fanatic Posts: 246 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 17/10/2004 at 01:26 AM |
how could damion see it when damion doesn't know about shmeng?
and if he does, then how the hell did he find out about shmeng? ____________________
When the world is over, will we wonder how it began?
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feralucce
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 1810 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 17/10/2004 at 01:45 AM |
| no offense... but other people from Columbia mo are on here... he...
told... me... be angry, but this is done... ____________________
The earth turns on a tilted axis - just doing the best it can.
Hohenheim of Light~Full Metal Alchemist
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Squire-of-Gothos
Fanatic  Posts: 206 Registered: 1/1/2003 Status: Offline
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posted on 13/11/2004 at 11:24 PM |
| Thanks a lot, Nicole. Thank you for telling me terrible things about your
ex boyfriend. Thank you for lulling me into thinking he was terrifying and
you wanted nothing to do with him. Thanks for getting me to bus for THREE
DAYS with goddamned unwashed huns all the way to southern California.
Thanks for having me shell out 1500 dollars in expenses to live there,
while you started going to record stores with your evil ex. Thanks for
deciding, after 4 months with me in your place, that you weren't my
girlfriend anymore, and not telling me. And thanks for disapearing for two
days, under the guise of helping him out in a crisis, so you could sleep
with him and make out with him. And thanks a whole fucking bunch for
telling me not to touch you anymore, and that we were over, and you and him
were mated at the FUCKING SOUL, and that I needed to leave hard and fast,
AFTER I already had a non-transferable ticket out of here. No, I WONT LEAVE
EARLY. I'll stay here, and eat your food, and smoke cigarettes while you
refuse to hug me, while you drag me back to your place to talk, and
actually spend the night with him watching fucking dvd's. Thanks a million,
Nikki, cuz it's a been a godamned blast. Hey, I almost forgot one thing,
FUCK YOU, YOU INSANE FUCKING BITCH. Your apartment sucks, and I fucking
HATE YOUR ASS. Thanks for letting it get sloppy and saggy while I was hear.
You should have worked out, to fucking please the old ex boyfriend. I'm
sure he loves feeling you up in his beat up fucking car. Oh, yea, that
reminds me, I DO dig your movie taste. Brava. ____________________
“The only thing that can alter the good writer is death.”
“You know that if I were reincarnated, I’d want to come back a buzzard.
Nothing hates him. He is never bothered or in danger, and he can eat
anything.”
Faulkner
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RedQueen
Member   Posts: 98 Registered: 18/10/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 16/11/2004 at 10:48 AM |
And with one little plop into the toilet water and a mass of bleeding, all
your happy dreams for the future are flushed away and you feel like scraped
away inside like a goddamn Halloween pumpkin. Death has thrown a
stag-party in the room of your body most sacred to Life. Pink has turned
to gray-brown, the color of dying earth.
Bring on the criplling alcoholism and addiction to painkillers. Genetics
screw you again. ____________________
Today's liberals are tomorrow's conservatives. When my generation is the
conservatives, we'll be fine letting gays get married and creationism vs.
evolution in schools will be a laughable issue.
But by god we'll be sticking it to the damn cyborgs!
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bettie_x
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 1570 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 16/11/2004 at 09:54 PM |
| That was depressing as hell, rq. I'm assuming you miscarried, and I'm
dreadfully sorry. ____________________
Trapped in time. Surrounded by evil. Low on gas.
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RedQueen
Member Posts: 98 Registered: 18/10/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 17/11/2004 at 09:40 AM |
I'm sorry, too, Bettie. I didn't want to depress anyone; I was just
feeling a little morose when I wrote that. Thanx, though. I did miscarry,
only it didn't happen all at once the way most women seem to miscarry; I
went to the doctor for an ultrasound in my tenth week and they told me the
baby had never really formed and the placenta had just kept growing anyway.
Apparently my body wanted to pretend it was pregnant when it wasn't
anymore. It took a week for all the... stuff to... go away. They put me
on Vicodin a couple of days ago, so now I can't really seem to feel sad
about it, but I figure that's okay since it dragged on so long and I was
sad about it...
The pills make me babble. I think I'm going to shut up now. ____________________
Today's liberals are tomorrow's conservatives. When my generation is the
conservatives, we'll be fine letting gays get married and creationism
vs.
evolution in schools will be a laughable issue.
But by god we'll be sticking it to the damn cyborgs!
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bettie_x
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 1570 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 17/11/2004 at 11:55 PM |
| Even tho there was no "baby" it's still hard to think you're pregnant (when
you want that) and then have it be literally flushed away. Just think of
it this way, even if it takes some time and wishful thinking, it'll usually
happen. Humans didn't overpopulate overnight (in the grand scope of
things) if nature hadn't eventually found a way. It'll just make the
eventual wonderful pink or brown or olive package that much more important. ____________________
Trapped in time. Surrounded by evil. Low on gas.
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RedQueen
Member Posts: 98 Registered: 18/10/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 18/11/2004 at 08:41 AM |
Yeah, we're going to try again after we finish up our undergrad degrees and
take a trip to Europe or something. We'd like to try again right now, but
we're going to be sensible and wait. This one wasn't planned, but we both
really wanted it. I think it hurt me more to see him cry after we found
out than I felt bad for myself.
On a side note (and also to get off a subject liable to kill this
thread):
GODDAMN BRITTNEY AND HER STUPID FUCKING MIND GAMES STILL EXISTING ON THE
FACE OF A PLANET THAT ISN'T THE MELTING HOT SURFACE OF MERCURY! ____________________
Today's liberals are tomorrow's conservatives. When my generation is
the
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conservatives, we'll be fine letting gays get married and creationism
vs.
evolution in schools will be a laughable issue.
But by god we'll be sticking it to the damn cyborgs!
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bettie_x
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 1570 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 18/11/2004 at 11:33 AM |
| I had a neighbor girl in kent named brittany, our windows were kitty corner
to each other and godDAMN did she and her mother have some brawls. Oh, and
she used to have guys at her window all night long yelling up to the second
floor. ____________________
Trapped in time. Surrounded by evil. Low on gas.
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RedQueen
Member Posts: 98 Registered: 18/10/2004 Status: Offline
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posted on 18/11/2004 at 12:22 PM |
"Brittney, you stupid whore, get the fuck down here and take what's coming
to you, bitch! If you're not sucking my dick in five minutes I'm coming up
there to beat your ass!"
Ah, good times. ____________________
Today's liberals are tomorrow's conservatives. When my generation is
the
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conservatives, we'll be fine letting gays get married and creationism
vs.
evolution in schools will be a laughable issue.
But by god we'll be sticking it to the damn cyborgs!
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