Got it, Feral. *sigh* This always seems to happen when things go right.
If you need my help, you know how to reach me...
And as a shuot out to the world:
Fuck you if you can't accept another person's happiness! Fuck you if you
think you have a right to tell me and my friends who we can and cannot
love...these are our fucking choices to make, not yours.
Fuck you for making me work a night shift right before a day shift. Fuck
you for making me sick.
And, in genreal.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
UUUUUUUCK!!!
There...*pants* I feel better.
____________________ "To Live is to Annoy." -- Rev. Lambert Reilly, Archabbot, St. Meinrad Abbey
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LadyCygnet
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posted on 25/11/2003 at 08:47 PM
Flame: The Karma Free Zone helps...I can scream incoherntly...only people
who know me intimately know what I'm referring to here...to everyone else,
it's just a ramble...
It's weird, though. Ever since I started visiting this place, I've begun
to heal in ways I didn't think were possible...and I haven't even really
been here that long...
Maybe that's the reason after all...*smiles at the friend who guided her
here*
____________________ "To Live is to Annoy." -- Rev. Lambert Reilly, Archabbot, St. Meinrad Abbey
Flame
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posted on 25/11/2003 at 07:32 PM
Heh heh... nice weather LadyCygnet... but that is pretty good weather
compared to the weather in northern part of europe where I live... snowing
is very normal phenomenom here... it was snowing yesterday and day before
that and now there is 5 to 10 inches of snow on the ground... I love snow
but I hate snowing and cold wind... fuck... anytime but now... I still have
2 exams left and I cant ride my bike to school... but snow is the least
problem... right now it is -19 degrees celsius (-2 in fahrenheit) and I
have to go to school in 5 and half hours... I am glad that it isnt winter
yet...
these last two weeks has been pain in my arse... I have made already 3
course exams that means 4 esseys... plus 3 esseys that I had to write about
ethics and morality... I know nothing about those things... and I still
have 2 course exams left and that means 4 or 5 esseys more... and thats not
all... I have made about 3 or 4 presentations in the last 2 weeks...
could you believe it or not but that is not all... when I thought that I
had my friday free from everything and I could sleep whole day and just
chill out but nooooooooooo.... I have kendo graduations or belt test or
whatever it is called.... and of course this weekend is kendo camp... about
5 hours a day of kendo... and monday my school starts again. you know... I
fucking hate this... every day a hurry... fuck
I know that this isnt nothing compared to LadyCygnets problems and
issues... maybe issues isnt a good word but I cant think of anything
else... but anyway... I hope you can solve those things... really
____________________ ''I know my dreams are made of you
of you and only for you...''
LadyCygnet
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posted on 25/11/2003 at 02:38 PM
Devin, you're right. The weather fucked up. Last Thursday, it was 78
fucking degrees here...and then it was SNOWING on Sunday. Today it's a
balmy 39 degrees.
And Prozac isn't the answer...it's Wellbutrin now...or Ambien...or, in my
case, Lexapro...
*ahem*
That being said, I feel the need...the need to gripe...
This is NOT what I consider fun. What, do you think that I enjoy being
cathetered and having burning shit poured into my nether regions? And this
is supposed to make me feel better? Fuck, man, it feels like battery acid.
Do you have any idea how many hours it took before I could even fucking
sit down? Do you think it's FUN to have a catheter? You honestly expect
me to be able to do my job while I'm in fucking burning pain...and did I
mention that I CAN'T FUCKING SIT?!? Do you think I enjoy fucking bleeding
when she shoves the fucking cath in too hard? As far as I'm concerned, it
fucking qualifies as sick. If you disagree, why don't you get a catheter
and try that shit yourself?
Yeah, I'm coughing up shit now, thanks for not keeping it to yourself,
roomie. And yeah, thanks for not paying your share like you said you
would, dickweed. Way to stick it to me, when you make more than I do. How
the hell do you see that as fair? You have bills of your own? Well,
welcome to the real world. I have a BA and a mountain of debt to match.
And I've been robbing Peter to pay Paul. I'll have to get a second job so
I can finally afford to get away from the first...and away from here...
Why does the weather have to be so fucked up? Why do I get the joy of
being alone on Thanksgiving? Why in the hell does my father suddenly hate
me for getting a divorce? Why is my ex badmouthing me? When did I become
the black sheep? Is it because I'm the ugly one? Or do idealists and
allegedly intelligent people not have the right to make mistakes? How is
it fair that little miss perfect beauty queen sister can get a divorce and
all is cool, and I, the obvious ugly duckling, can't do the same? Who are
you to judge me, you pompous ass? I make my own choices, damn it, and I
will pay for the consequences. If you choose to use this as an excuse not
to be a part of your life, then FINE! You were never much of a father
anyway, with your pride, arrogance, temper...the beatings, the nights you
took your rifle outside and said you were going to kill yourself...when you
pulled the trigger, you should have aimed better...but you liked us afraid,
you asshole! Just to reassure you that we'd cry if you were dead. Fuck
that. Who needs you, if you can't understand what he did to me? Force is
still not right...it's not love, it's not respect...it can wear a lot of
names...fuck you if you think it's okay for a man to do that to his wife...
It made me feel grosser than I did when he bred me out...and then changed
his mind...
Fuck you. I wanted to be friends, but I don't think you understand just
yet. How dare you drag out our fights in front of my family, twisting what
was said to make you look like some sort of wronged saint! I never told
them what you did to me...what you did, in spite of what I told you
happened...how I couldn't sing anymore...you took that from me again...but
I have found my voice, you fucker, and you'd better duck, because I won't
stop. Not now. I can be bad like you, just take what I want and fuck the
rest...but I can't really do that...I was raised to heal, not to kill...but
I'm too wrapped up in my own shit to be much good to anyone...
Fuck destiny. All I see in the mirror is a different face every time I
look. Some call it ugly; I called it "aesthetically challenged." Fuck you
if you don't like the way I look; you don't have to look at me; God knows
I'm probably not looking at you. Sure, I'm self-centered sometimes...but
who isn't? Why the fuck is it that we project our worst qualities on other
people, but can't see the forest for the trees?
Fuck it, I'm rambling...but damn it, I'm bound to be bitchy after a
treatment...grrr....
Thank the Deity for the Karma Free Zone. I'd seriously be hurting
otherwise...
____________________ "To Live is to Annoy." -- Rev. Lambert Reilly, Archabbot, St. Meinrad Abbey
Devin
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posted on 25/11/2003 at 12:42 PM
Seasons.
Ok, suddenly it's cold, and I didn't go anywhere. The cold just came to
me. If that's not wrong enough, all the trees look dead. Nobody seems to
notice but me. It snowed the other day. Not up on a mountain, where I
could go visit it if I wanted, but the snow came to MY house - I didn't ask
for this.
I'm sorry but all of that is just FUCKED UP!!!
Yes it is, and all the people that think this is all normal? YOU"RE FUCKED
UP TOO.
Everybody's either suddelny grumpy or a prozac zombie and I'm the weird
one? I don't think so fucko's - The gloom is starting to make me edgy.
No, I will not just take my prozac and pretend it's not happening, it's
fucking weird! Prozac is not the answer.
When you live most of your life on a volcano, you learn that when the place
you live tells you something, you do what you're told. If a volcano says
move somewhere else, you don't ask questions, or self medicate. It makes
sense that if the place you live is telling you to be edgy and psycho, then
you should not take prozac, you should just be edgy and psycho, or you
should move elsewhere. (I like the second option myself).
I walk to work in the dark, and I walk home in the dark and I only work 8
hours. You can't convince me that's how things are supposed to be. Just
because it's "Winter" doesn't give the sun an excuse to race across the sky
just cuz the hawaiian demigod that tied it up and threatened it isn't
watching. (Ask me bout that sometime).
And quit looking at me like I'm wearing the emperor's new clothes. You all
can wear your wool and flannel and try your best to resemble 18th century
russian peasants - I don't give a fuck, and I don't look at you like you
have horns and a tail. Me wearing leather does not make me a fucking
alien. Quit staring at me already you zombies. The leather keeps me more
warm and dry than your stupid wool and flannel, and it keeps your nasty
vibes out too. You should try it. And just because I happen to look
better than you doesn't give you the right to stare at me like I'm from
another planet. It's the fact that I'm from a whole other world that gives
you that right, but since you don't know that, you shouldn't be assuming
that you have that right.
So nobody be saying "Relax Devin, that's just how it is here" - Well
fucknugget, if that's how it is here, then you should be expecting me to
get the winter psychos, and and you should be used to people calling you
fucknugget, just like the leaves falling off the trees. Where I come from,
when the leaves fall off of a tree or someone calls you a fucknugget, it's
time to knock the shit down. But since it's normal here, everyone can take
their prozac and relax and deal with it, I'll just be psycho thanks.
____________________ So Sayeth Me
LadyCygnet
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posted on 20/11/2003 at 01:27 AM
Because today just really sucked ass and I haven't yelled in a long time
(even when I argue, I tend to be soft-spoken):
<yell>JUST HOW FUCKING STUPID ARE YOU?!?</yell>
Okay...I feel better...stupid, temper-tantrum throwing people...walking out
when patients need you...*continues to grumble, growing less coherent*
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KittyGoesMrow
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posted on 19/11/2003 at 04:20 AM
369*steps on Flames vagina/penis* fuck you...
oooo... even number... 370... much better
____________________ Anata ga sabishii toki, bokumo sabishii n da yo
callei
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Posts: 759 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
posted on 18/11/2003 at 07:50 PM
some of these would be way worth seeing on the front page. And you can use
any and all four letter words you want. jsut a hint ....
this is/was for people that couldnt post anywhere else on the site, not
people with happy Karma.
and....
Fuck you, you insane twit. jsut because your freak of nature husband left
you for someone else doesnt mean that you can hate every woman that you
meet. Some of us dont care who you once fucked or what came of it. Some of
us arent fixated on the boss and SOME of us just want you do your job and
stay the hell out of our way.
and stop trying to change the settings on your computer.
and learn to use the email program i set up
and dont call me away from something to get me to open your person emails
so you can see some pictures someone you met once long ago sent you
and I am not here to be your assistant.
and stay away from my pens, pencils, paper, envelopes, emails, print outs,
and ANYTHING else that is on or NEAR my desk
did you fail kindergarten or something?
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LadyCygnet
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posted on 18/11/2003 at 12:06 AM
Fuck yeah!
KGM: You rock, and I mean that in the Best Possible Way.
Flame: Aw, shucks...
But yeah, blowing off steam sans the threat of losing karma is a good
thing.
Don't be shy...scream a lot...
____________________ "To Live is to Annoy." -- Rev. Lambert Reilly, Archabbot, St. Meinrad Abbey
Flame
Coward
Posts: 4 Registered: 17/11/2003 Status: Offline
posted on 17/11/2003 at 01:17 PM
This isn't really nothing compared to LadyCygnet or most of other users...
but this is my hate list right now...
I fucking hate children under 16 years... especially those fucking
know-it-all retarded little fuckers who respects no one...
and those fucking spoiled little prats who gets anything they want
I fucking hate Mic Mac's...
ja tietenki niit vitun hoppareita...
I fucking hate those who don't know how to insult other people...
Damn I almost forgot to go to shower... I am sorry but this list was little
shorter than I thought it would be but I will continue some other time...
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of you and only for you...''
Merry_Widow
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posted on 17/11/2003 at 10:21 AM
Well fuck me sideways on a broken trampoline....we actually have a count
going...
Good fucking job, KGM!
____________________ Okay, dazzle me.
KittyGoesMrow
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posted on 17/11/2003 at 09:54 AM
359...
____________________ Anata ga sabishii toki, bokumo sabishii n da yo
Devin
Administrator
Posts: 317 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Online
posted on 17/11/2003 at 09:23 AM
Fuck, that's a lotta fucking fucks
____________________ So Sayeth Me
KittyGoesMrow
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posted on 16/11/2003 at 06:53 PM
Ok... The tally is in
apprx 355 fucks
ok now 356
but still...
I was bored...
Therefore i humor thee...
Enjoy.
____________________ Anata ga sabishii toki, bokumo sabishii n da yo
LadyCygnet
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posted on 16/11/2003 at 03:09 PM
Whoohoo! We've entered the Fuckzone!
MW...gotta love the ability to post with impunity...
Fuckatitudes condensed:
Fucked art thou when thou hast a roommate, for they will surely stiff thee
on expenses and steal thine liquor.
Fucked art thou when thou fallest in love, for people are assholes, and
they will trample thee just for fun.
Fucked art thou when thou givest a damn; too many people don't, and they
will feel at liberty to tell thee so.
Fucked art thou if thy lovest thine job, for thou shalt surely be downsized
when corporate chooses to cut corners.
Fucked art thou when someone steals your Vicodin, for thine doctor will
consider thee a junkie and let thee suffer with Tylenol.
Fucked art thou when thou art happy, for people will do their utmost to
bring thee down.
Fucked art thou when thou art sad, for people will tell thee that thou hast
no right to be upset.
Fucked art thou when thou dreameth, hopeth, loveth, doeth, for mankind will
curse thee to thine face.
Rejoice and be glad, though, for there art people out there who
understandeth thee...thou must just go thither and find them...
Gad, I hate King James English...but it's fun just the same...
[Edited on 17/11/2003 by LadyCygnet]
____________________ "To Live is to Annoy." -- Rev. Lambert Reilly, Archabbot, St. Meinrad Abbey
Merry_Widow
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posted on 16/11/2003 at 02:53 PM
Fuck you room mates!!! It is not my fucking job to sit here and mediate
between you two fuckity fucks! Fuck you for not being able to talk to each
other, fuck you for not keeping a fucking calm head, and fuck you for
fucking snapping at ME when I am fucking trying to tell you how things
fucking went. I know you fucking don't like confrontation, but if you can
kepp your fucking indignation to a fucking minimum, this fucking piece of
shit might just get fucking resolved. I hate the fucking tension you two
fuckity fucks have put up in the air. You know, i have other, better things
to do than to settle your fucking hurt feelings, and then get my fucking
head bitten off. I am not a fucking mediator! I am the last person in the
world for a fucking job like that! Do not give me your shit when I actually
fucking try to help!
You wanna know why I get more and more fucking apathetic as time goes on?
This is why! Fuck you all! I'm through! Go snap at some other dumb fuck who
trys to fucking help you out!
____________________ Okay, dazzle me.
LadyCygnet
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posted on 15/11/2003 at 09:20 PM
KGM: Way to use the Karma Free Zone.
Back to the fuckatitudes (all dealing with men):
Fuck you for not being forthright. Fuck you for taking the love I kept
behind for you and dumping it like so much refuse. Fuck you for being
everything you ever said you were. Fuck you for making me believe
otherwise. Fuck you for tearing me to pieces. Fuck you for having my
father's haunted eyes.
Fuck you for letting me see the evil in your wretched soul. Fuck you for
not hitting me when I gave you the chance. Fuck you for even thinking of
hitting me, you cocksucking bastard. Fuck you for making me believe you
didn't hurt her when you did. Fuck you and your immaturity. Fucking grow
up before you even think about another fucking relationship, and quit your
fucking whining, Fucktard, you are the most fucking irresponsible,
irritating, hateful little shit I have ever known. Fuck you for outdoing
me.
*gets the soap* Time to wash off the fingers...
____________________ "To Live is to Annoy." -- Rev. Lambert Reilly, Archabbot, St. Meinrad Abbey