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DarkMistress
Member   Posts: 170 Registered: 6/6/2002 Status: Offline
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posted on 13/10/2002 at 08:04 PM |
This has been ruining my entire weekend. Well, not really, but it's been
bothering me a lot. It's petty, but I'm annoyed. Friday. Glorious,
wonderful Friday, going wrong as usual. You'd think that planning these
days out would help, but it doesn't, so it's best to be spontaneous. I
loved this school because all my teachers loved me, without reason. I've
always been trustworthy and all that junk that teachers like. Why is it
differen't this year? Maybe I'm exaggerating?
No offense to anyone who is very into sports, but I am not. First of
all, my idea of naming our class newspaper "conformity" was shunned. I
expected that though, no one wants to admit their faults. Is being a
conformist a fault? I don't know, that's not the point. All my teachers
know I don't like sports, yet for this newspaper thing I was put into
writing stories for the sports section. A way to, open my eyes, my reading
teacher said. Luckily, before all hell broke loose someone switched with
me and I now write for politics. Mrs. H wasn't happy.
I was put next to a kid I really don't get along with for math. And I'm
farthest in the corner so the teacher never looks at me. This teacher
likes me so I don't understand this, but now raising my hand is a pointless
act. Aside from that my arm is bruised because the kid hit me until I
smacked him with my math book. If you've been reading this, I'll remind
you that there is a point to this forum.
Okay so fourth and fifth hour were normal, nothing new really. Though I
had been having a terrible day with things happening in the hall and the
class bull shit and all that, I was looking forward to 7th hour. That was
my sanity time. Allow me to elaborate.
Ever since I had to go see the counselor at the beginning of the year for
my grades and 'signs of depression' I've been going back. This counselor,
a wonderful woman, started a journaling group for me and some girls. There
are five of us in there, just five, and it's a time to just relax, talk,
write, about anything. This time keeps me from lashing out at everyone and
it's during a study hall. I always have my homework done so there's no
reason for me not to go. It's only a study hall.
Thursday I went to the journaling group and the counselor wasn't in yet.
So I sat down and talked with the girls until she came. I was supposed to
bring a note before class to give to my advisor (shes study hall as well,
and reading, remember). Well I told the counselor that maybe she should
call her or something, but she said to just bring a pass after class and
tell her what happened. So after 7th hour I went to the study hall room
but she wasn't there. I put the note on her desk next to her gradebook
where she would find it.
Back to Friday. I was sitting in study hall, not sure if I was going to
go to the group today or not. One of the girls came to get me and I was
half way out the door when Mrs. H said, "Jessica, sit down, your priveleges
have been revoked." My friend shot me an odd look and told me I need to
get a permanent pass. Then of course, I sat back down, opened my notebook
and began to draw. The girl in front of me silently asked me what was
going on. I began to tell her but Mrs. H said, "Jessica if you have a
problem you can talk to me after class." Yeah whatever..
Mrs. H came and took the seat next to me.
"I didn't want to cause a scene in front of everyone."
"Too late."
"It's just this is the second time that you didn't bring a pass in and I
told you you needed to."
"Mrs. W told me to bring you the pass after class and I put it on your
desk. The first time I wasn't even aware that I had to bring a pass so
that doesn't really count."
"Yes it does. And I didn't see the pass."
"Well I put it on your desk."
"I think you should stay here until the 28th. Then maybe you can start
going back." She got up and walked back to her desk.
I'll remind you that this is a study hall and I always have my assignments
done. There is nothing else for me to do except sit there, so why take my
priveleges away? When I first met her she was..disarming. She always
smiled. I began to wonder about her when she smiled through screaming at
the kids.. But I noticed before that she didn't like me when she sided
with a kid who was harassing me. I believe she wants to classify me as one
of the "bad kids."
Let me also point out that I have not proven myself untrustworthy and all
my previous teachers can back me up on that. I'm thinking of seeing the
principal and getting my priveleges back. What do you guys think? Have I
over looked something, am I wrong? There IS a point for me to go to that
group, and it's to have a little privacy and to talk about things that have
been bothering me. The counselor doesn't want me to keep these things
locked up because she had a hell of a time getting me to say anything.
And shouldn't teachers be open minded about kids? Oh yes, just because
you're a teacher doesn't mean you're smart. After watching my brother get
jerked around by his teachers before finally getting kicked out and sent to
the alternative, I decided I'm not going to be jerked around. Nor am I
going to go about these problems in the wrong manner. So yeah..just needed
to get that out... ____________________
"Pity no one was there
No angels in the air
And the morning paper ran
One more suicide"
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Alugarde
Member  Posts: 185 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 13/10/2002 at 10:05 PM |
1. (Referring to your first paragraph) It's best to explain what happened
before you start ranting about it.
2. Its best to writet cause-and-event style, not the other way around.
Makes the whole thing alot easier to read. ____________________
l33t is the bastard cousin of contractions.
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AloneSoul
Fanatic   Posts: 522 Registered: 6/7/2002 Status: Offline
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posted on 13/10/2002 at 11:58 PM |
| This isn't English class, no need to tear into someone for venting. ____________________
 but at least you know, just how much pain there is in living
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Psychopixi
Fanatic  Posts: 376 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 14/10/2002 at 08:02 AM |
I think that if you want to go and take the matter to your principal then
you should, just be careful how you do it. If you start going on about how
your teacher is picking on you etc... he might just decide to side with
that teacher.
Maybe you could also talk to the counsellor as well and ask her to say
something either to your teacher or the principal. If she believes that you
have a right, and a reason, to be seeing her then that has to count for
something with your school. ____________________
Do not fear death so much, but rather the inadequate life.
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Ironboots
Extreme Fanatic   Posts: 893 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 14/10/2002 at 08:46 AM |
Yeah, Psychopixi brought up a good idea. Your counselor will probably side
with you, and maybe you can get back to your usual...
And study hall isn't that bad. Just bring a book or something else fun to
do. Game boy, anyone?
As for the kid that's annoying you, that book was a good start... Make him
think twice about touching you. 
And I share your fear of the newspaper... She (the teacher that runs it) is
always trying to get me to write something... But I know what she'll do.
She'll get my writing, then spellcheck it and critique it to death until it
isn't mine anymore... *shudders* And she's my english teacher, too, this
year... *double shudders* ____________________
Piggy's got the Conch!
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bettie_x
Extreme Fanatic  Posts: 1570 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 14/10/2002 at 08:55 AM |
I agree with that...if you want to prove (though even if a good track
record isn't enough and you HAVE to anyway) how trustworthy and reliable
you are, then go about it in the most ADULT and clearheaded and logical and
CALM way you can.
I always thought I was calm and logical but I was a raving lunatic
*grin*
Anyway, make an after school appointment with the counselor and discuss it
with her..if she feels you NEED to be there, she can probably pull some
weight in your behalf. Maybe have her talk to your teacher. I don't think
going to the principal is a god idea...going straight over her head will
probably make her a little angry and strengthen her resolve to keep you
there. When you discuss it with her, make it sound less of a "you don't
understand me/me against you the nazi teacher" and make it more of a
"misunderstanding that you wish to resolve" (so you don't end up taking a
hatchet to your classmates).
Whatever the outcome is, respect it (as hard as that may be) without
complaint or attitude and do your "time" and then in the end she'll
probably respect you more and give you the "priveledges" you feel you're
entitled to.
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Alugarde
Member Posts: 185 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 14/10/2002 at 11:00 AM |
| Ah, shit. I didn't think I was being mean, but apparently it came out that
way. I was just having a really bad day when I wrote that. Sorry
DarkMistress. ____________________
l33t is the bastard cousin of contractions.
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DarkMistress
Member Posts: 170 Registered: 6/6/2002 Status: Offline
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posted on 14/10/2002 at 05:29 PM |
First, thank you all. Don't worry about it Alugarde, I'm not that easily
broken. I'll take this time to tell you all I don't REALLY write that
horribly. Really. I don't. You'll probably be seeing a lot of the same
errors repeated though, it's a typing thing.
I went to the counselor as suggested and she said it would be best to stick
it out until the 28th. I still need to prove that I can handle these
things maturely to her *ahem* and I guess that's what I get to do. But,
thankfully, Mrs. H moved me to the secluded corner of the room after I
yelled at four kids who were going through my things. They have no
respect, I swear.
But my counselor basically said the same thing bettie did about respecting
the decision. I still think Mrs. H is a bit of a control freak and I didn't
appreciate her laughing at me this morning, but I didn't say anything
either. I'm not sure how much of it I can handle though. I'm respectful
to those who deserve respect, sometimes people loose it. But anyway, thank
ya'll for your help! If it weren't for you guys I'd probably have stormed
in there *thinking* I was handling it like an adult but *really* sounding
whiney.
____________________
"Pity no one was there
No angels in the air
And the morning paper ran
One more suicide"
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bettie_x
Extreme Fanatic Posts: 1570 Registered: 31/12/1969 Status: Offline
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posted on 14/10/2002 at 11:08 PM |
It's a learning experience babycakes. Use it.
And for a little fun and a sort of defiance to those that bug you and to
the teacher, sit in the center of things as possible. It will be very
difficult, but not only by staying put and not causing a fuss over it AND
not "hiding" you'll set an even stronger example to those around you AND
your teacher. Just a thought if you're up to it 
I was that way too, you know...I would just rather hide and get it over
with, or make SURE they hear me no matter how beligerant or insane I
appeared. Sure, it got people's attention and they HEARD me whether they
liked it or not, but I realise now that there were probably a lot of other
ways to go around it that would have gotten my problems solved a lot
quicker and easier. Hind sight is 20/20, the sorry and stupid truth.
You'll be okay
You're a smart girl, you'll get through with your shit together.
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