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Re: Re: Re: Re: They Don't Understand Meeeee!
by Meranda_Jade (Meranda@mymind.com)
on Aug 14, 2002 - 07:33 AM
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Awww.... thanks so much, Cashmere... and tell your parents I'm touched... and thank them for me too... :-)
I just realized, after reading this, and getting comments on it, and thinking about the whole thing... that it's always been this way. When I lived there, I'd come out of my room only at mealtimes, whenever I happened to be home, which was as little as I could possibly get away with... I think this started when I was about 10 years old. When I was younger and unsure of myself, they kept me down by picking on me, everything I did was up for criticism. They tried so hard to make me fit. I think my mom was disappointed that I wasn't like the other kids in school, and did not make friends easily, and had no interest in normal things. My sister was just self-absorbed, and I embarrassed her by not being normal. The funniest thing is, they're still trying the same old tricks. I've grown, and I'm allowing myself to be me, and it still disturbs them as much as it ever did. I can actually laugh about it now... seeing what it's really about, and that it's nothing new, they've always been like this. And it's never going to change. So when I have obligatory days that I have to visit, I will keep my mouth shut, smile and nod, and know that this is what they really want. I'll put on a brief show of normality for their sakes... Thanks, everyone... this has been a lot of help...
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